Friday, March 31, 2006

Thank you Lord. This hectic work week has come to the end. I am thankful that God brought me thru..

Next week.. esp first 3 days... Hmm i think somebody is going to miss somebody le. I look forward to that. Though I might not know abt the outcome, I think it is worth exploring. Hee =)

God is in control. May I learn to manifest His glory in my life!

Sunday, March 26, 2006

It was a peaceful weekend. I din do much but just lazed around and the pace seemed to be alot slower than normal. Nothing very exciting but I know I shd enjoy the peace and calmness in life.

Went to a choral concert by 詹宏达. It was pretty good and I am still very amazed and impressed by the lyrics. 中华文化五千年的文化和文字,实在无法抹杀其价值。华文字体中所蕴意的含义和精神,唯有懂得珍惜和欣赏的人才会叹为观止!好伟大的中华文化阿!我为着詹老师能将她发挥的淋漓尽致而感恩,更美的是---透过文字,它诉说了神的大能和永恒不变的真理。

我为着我能够有明白华文华语的能力感恩,这是何等大的福分啊!

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

I am comforted by God's words this morning as I read Isaiah 49:13-18. It reminds us that God have us engraved on His palms. How sweet our Lord is :) I am truly grateful for His everlasting and merciful love. Again and again, He knocks some senses on me. He will not forsake me, He will never do that. Although I may seem insignificant in this world, I can be assured that our Almighty God actually takes note on me and He listens to my nonsense all the time!

I guess I need some sense of security. I met this drunk man last Tues @ Boon Lay interchange. I wasn't alone, with a few strangers, waiting for bus 187. This man came forward and talked to me. I was so scared, scared that He will eat me up. Ha...thankfully this young boy was beside me. Then the bus conductor came and everyone boarded the bus. Guess what, I was so scared till I chopped a seat near to door. Then there was this guy with a decent body build sat beside me. Wowo, I was so relieved. Haa.. guess that guy also noticed my timid look while q-ing. :D I am just like any other girl who needs security... Haa...

OK, I have submitted to God. Happen anot, I just want to commit everything unto His hands Simply cant afford to have my mind running wild like nobody business =)

Friday, March 10, 2006

Another week has passed. so scary...

I am having this headache, on and off. Maybe I think too much le... Was in an emotional roller coaster again. I still cnat get over and sort out my thoughts. I feel sad coz I have some disagreement with the person i respect alot. I just cant imagine how come it will ever happen... he is such a wise and nice person.

Hmmm

Sunday, March 5, 2006

一大早我觉得很懒散。 不是因为我睡得不够,而是因为心里有点难受,很不舒服的感觉。到底发生了什么事?

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我欣慰自己有那种能力和感觉,毕竟我还是人!但我不知道这心要悬挂多久?害怕碰钉,讨厌失望的感觉,更担心自己陷入一个试探里头。这个感觉很玄,很微妙,只能意会,很难言传。

神,求你教导我该如何拿捏以致不得罪你!阿门

Wednesday, March 1, 2006

I am actually experiencing God's grace everyday esp at work.

Anything dat will get wrong will get wrong BUT
I am well protected under His wings...

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

有时我觉得自己很可恶, 总是不满足...

为何神不能成全我想要的呢? 难道真的那么不合他心意? Haiz... 这样的欲望和意念如此的过分吗? Hmmm...

当他觉得我不是他的威胁时, 他似乎友善和乐于分享他所知所学. 其实我绝非是那种没有野心的人, 我有自己的抱负. 只是可能我较踏实, 天真些, 想学好真功夫后才大展拳脚 :) 很讽刺的, 我被卷入其中. 大叔说我是fighter, 需要给自己一些时间, 然后我便能展翅高飞? 哈... 哈...

Friday, February 17, 2006

Another week is down... I am indeed thankful for God's guidance and presence in my life

Finally I have got my laptop after a long wait =D Hope I can use it wisely and diligently.
Progressing well and still in the course of absorbing new knowledge, ideas, culture etc. There is so much to explore here. Better communications among the colleagues, this is something that I am very thankful.
Office politic again in another division. A fren is being bullied. Lord I pray that we, Christians in this workplace can shine for You and thru our witness, people can get to know you. What a blessing for being the children of God, we still have God with us no matter what happens. :)

A talk "The Pursuit of Holiness" by Dr Li ZhenQun. Indeed he is a knowledgable, quick and intelligent guy. Here is some excerps frm his talk.

神透过耶稣基督看我们 just like while purchasing pork in supermarket, we actually choose and see the pork thru a layer of plastic wrap. The pork is different from what it is due to the wrap.

We are called to be Holy and we are already Holy (已然) via Jesus Christ but yet to be (未然) Holy. The pursuit of Holiness is a PROCESS, hopefully one day we can become perfect like God for HE HImself is perfect. Perhaps we can never be perfect but we should be progressively heading towards the road to Holiness. Also, God is with us at any point of time. It is a horizozntal ladder instead of a vertical one. Be it moving forward and reverse, He will always there with us. What we need in us is TRUST.

Romans 12: 1-2 reminds us to have a Renewal in mind 心意更新. What does that mean? It means a change in
1. Thinking 思想
2. Attitude 态度
3. Understanding 了解

Lastly, Dr Li share this sentiment... REM...
Your good deed will not make God love you more. It is all by GRACE!

Sunday, February 12, 2006

Not what i will, but what He will

I keep getting this msg over the last few days

Everything is possible with God. Just pray to Him whatever you want. If God is willing, He will answer. Remember: Not what I will, but what He will

Jesus is great. Although He hoped that the cup could be taken away from Him, but He chose to be submissive to the sovereignty of God.

Wednesday, February 8, 2006

Things are getting better...

My skin has become thicker and I really pray that God use me as His instrument in this place. Lord, help me to do what I should and teach me to fear Lord only.

God does not look at what position or job title I am getting at work, instead He is concern whether have I given my very best and being faithful as a servant.

To add on, He cares whether do i compromise my charaters to obtain higher recognition,praise, pay raise...haa

Tuesday, February 7, 2006

我很想哭...

我不知道该怎么办...

我暂时还没有后悔当初作的决定...

神啊, 求您教导我该如何去做...

Monday, February 6, 2006

Within 30 minutes, I've got 2 news, both related to lives.

The mother-in-law of a church leader passed away this morning. I think the wife must be very sad and all grieved
GF told me she is pregnant! I am happy for her. But she scared of losing the job and baby is now unstable.

No matter what happens, God is still in control!
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Was on a roller coaster last weekend. Thankfully God still speaks to me via different people. Need to stay cool, get out of the crowd and spend time with God.

PDA - Pray, Discern and Action. It is only when you face the problems bravely and learn to overcome all these by His might and grace. Seek His direction and observe whether I am on the right track anot. Prayer is only the start, it should be followed by action...

The speaker guaranteed all audiences that they will encounter lots obstacles, trials and temptations in the years to come. She urged us to go back to the 'desert旷野' and have an encounter (相遇) with God. Renew your strength in Him and this is the secret of 重新得力!

Isa 40
29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

Wednesday, February 1, 2006

STay COOL

I complain abt him as I feel disgusted by his behaviour, unbearable, hard to stay cool!! arghhh....

Then this wise uncle told me...
"Master your own gong fu. Be secure of your own worth. This is typical office politics. When org big, need to 'fight' to get ahead. Do not let it get to you. Stay cool"

"On the bright side, you must be doing good to let others feel 'insecure'. Focus on learning own skill. In IT, knowledge is power."

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Come, look back. What to see?

When you strain towards what is ahead, remember to look back. Hey, you will be amazed by how God brought you through and His amazing and abundant grace is always there for you!

当你很努力地往标竿奔跑时, 心中难免有不安, 不知道前景将会是如何,走起来也许会有些心惊胆跳...

记得,往后看! 神在过去岂不是保守你平安地渡过那些日子吗? 这就是恩典. 继续倚靠神吧!

Amen =)

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

战兢... 担忧...

I actually feel quite tensed after the team discussion.

I feel that there is a subtle threat. I am not as eloquent, 'hardworking' and jovial as the person is. Maybe put it this way, I am not a boot licker.

I feel so scared and insecure. Lotsa soft deadlines coming up and I gotta work on sth which I am quite unfamiliar with in a short time frame.

Shd it be a mighty mountain or a valley dark n deep,
the Shepherd of my soul will by my side. Amen

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Shepherd Of My Soul
Martin Nystrom

Verse:
Shepherd of my soul, I give You full control
Wherever You may lead I will follow
I have made the choice, to listen to Your voice
Wherever You may lead, I will go

Chorus:
Be it in a quiet pasture, or by a gentle stream
The Shepherd of my soul is by my side
Should I face a mighty mountain, or a valley dark and deep
The Shepherd of my soul will be my guide

©1986 Maranatha Praise, Inc. (Admin. by The Copyright Company)

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Do what pleases God -PDL

Actually there are quite a number of ways to please God
1. Be obedient aka submit self to Him wholeheartedly
2. Always Praise Him for Who He is and Thank Him for His grace and blessings upon us
3. Trust Him in everything.

Hmmm Trust Him means have faith in God as He knows what is best for me. This is a lesson that I am learning now... i need a bit more patience... Yes... and dun let my own desire overrides what is coming from the God

Monday, January 16, 2006

I am scared... I am worried dat what I think and imagine will dishonour God.

Cleanse my thoughts pls, God

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

When is it? Pretty girl?

J:How old are you?
P:Make a guess =)
J:24?
P:No...
J:25?
P:No... I am 26 already =) And u?
J:25... *wink*
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J:So when are you getting married?
P:Huh? I'm not attached yet, how to get married?
J:Dun belief. You look like those who are attached. You are pretty.
P:*Grin*

Haa... what an interesting conversation i witness juz now during lunch! So amusing... come to think of it, quite true though... :D

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Today Pm finally briefed me what I am goin to work on. Thank God that it was a good session. Slowly getting a hang of it... those terms are not dat unfamiliar anymore... hoho... gd gd... gotta start my engine soon =)

Sunday, January 8, 2006

which lunch group shd i join?

Today is the fifth day at work.

Finally ali is back and he said he will brief me on the workload. Phew... so am i in carrier or corona? haa... no idea...

Actually I am not too sure which lunch grp shd i join? One grp always go out n eat and the other one go to the nearby makan places. I am not too sure which company do I want to tag along with. Honestly, I think I prefer the latter group but hmm..dunno what to talk to them also. Haiz...

I will still have to speak up regardless of which grp i am in. Hmmm i think i am not quiet type..but when it comes to the cofffe talk... haiz