Hmm just now had a great time talking to ex-boss. He came back to start off a new project. Finally we can work together again!
While briefing him some of the issues I encountered at work, i suddenly blurt a confession, saying that I want to quit! haha.... Then he sensed something wrong and asked if I have time for a talk. Yup, i am free today...so...
Was telling him how I fare for the past few months since he left and venting out some frustrations in front of him. Felt like i was bad-mouthing the management. But seriously I cant really see eye to eye to their strategy and goals. I told him how umcomfy I am with the bosses' conduct. Then I told him if there is a chance, I will choose to try out for new things.
Actually he is not surprised dat I have such thinking. Ehh...he is a good listener and a very kind cum nice guy. He shared some of his thoughts and insights. Hmm thank God for the wonderful time although i do feel bad and guilty for what I have commented on the management.
Haiz, now the move does not depend on me but the heavenly boss. I actually feel a bit discouraged after so many days of waiting. The feeling sucks. But I have told myself to have more patience and stay positive. =)
Monday, August 29, 2005
Sunday, August 28, 2005
Psalm 62 - a good reminder
Psalm 62
1 My soul finds rest in God alone;
my salvation comes from him.
2 He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.
3 How long will you assault a man?
Would all of you throw him down—
this leaning wall, this tottering fence?
4 They fully intend to topple him
from his lofty place;
they take delight in lies.
With their mouths they bless,
but in their hearts they curse.
5 Find rest, O my soul, in God alone;
my hope comes from him.
6 He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
7 My salvation and my honor depend on God [a] ;
he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
8 Trust in him at all times, O people;
pour out your hearts to him,
for God is our refuge.
1 My soul finds rest in God alone;
my salvation comes from him.
2 He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.
3 How long will you assault a man?
Would all of you throw him down—
this leaning wall, this tottering fence?
4 They fully intend to topple him
from his lofty place;
they take delight in lies.
With their mouths they bless,
but in their hearts they curse.
5 Find rest, O my soul, in God alone;
my hope comes from him.
6 He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
7 My salvation and my honor depend on God [a] ;
he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
8 Trust in him at all times, O people;
pour out your hearts to him,
for God is our refuge.
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
What happen?!
I dunno how happen to me? myself and my appetite?!
Dunno why, dun crave for food these few days, dun feel like eating and hungry, maybe! Hmmm... wonder why...
I think I am calmer and expressionless these few days. However, I do have peace in me. The peace which comes from God. I know I should be still and know that HE is GOD, the LORD of my life.
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Thank God for a freshie last night. She got to know us during ECA fair and she actually took the trouble to come and join our BS. Very touched and thankful =)
Had a good BS last night. Hmm we cant self proclaim our own righteousness. There isn't any righteous person in this world. Only by His grace and via His blood, we are cleansed and then justified by faith.
The book of Romans, the most recent sermon, QT readings and recent incidents again make me reliase that it is so tough to shine for the Lord in this world. Lord, please teach me and mould me into a better instrument, a better person. So that when people see me, they see God. Amen.
Dunno why, dun crave for food these few days, dun feel like eating and hungry, maybe! Hmmm... wonder why...
I think I am calmer and expressionless these few days. However, I do have peace in me. The peace which comes from God. I know I should be still and know that HE is GOD, the LORD of my life.
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Thank God for a freshie last night. She got to know us during ECA fair and she actually took the trouble to come and join our BS. Very touched and thankful =)
Had a good BS last night. Hmm we cant self proclaim our own righteousness. There isn't any righteous person in this world. Only by His grace and via His blood, we are cleansed and then justified by faith.
The book of Romans, the most recent sermon, QT readings and recent incidents again make me reliase that it is so tough to shine for the Lord in this world. Lord, please teach me and mould me into a better instrument, a better person. So that when people see me, they see God. Amen.
Sunday, August 21, 2005
If it is Your will
Lord, if it is Your will, please take me away from here. I feel a bit depressed and upset. I dunno how to shine for You!! I dun wan to be a quitter and yet I feel so lousy and shit about myself.
If the doors are not opened, please grant me a submissive and obedient heart. I found it very hard to manage self and them. Feeling directionless and swim to nowhere.
If the doors are not opened, please grant me a submissive and obedient heart. I found it very hard to manage self and them. Feeling directionless and swim to nowhere.
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
God and the Marketplace
There is a universe of difference between hearing a sermon about God and hearing the God of the sermon speak to our hearts. One tickles the mind and trips the ego; the other touches the heart and transforms the life
Recognise you need to hear what God has to say- you’re not going to figure it out – life is too complex
Stop complaining, be thankful, remember God’s goodness then listen carefully
Knowing about grace and experiencing it are two different things. Grace, when truly experienced, transforms you. We experience grace when we reliase how badly we’ve messed up, how ugly we are, how we do not deserve anything but JUDGEMENT from God and yet God chooses to bless us greatly!
Grace is getting what we do not deserve and mercy is not getting what we deserve.
Today the rewards of a job have become the all-consuming focus of a person’s life – we fight, fume and frustrate ourselves over it. Our identity, self-worth and self-esteem become tied up in our work. Our work becomes our security, the measure of success, our significance, status and substance. This was NEVER the purpose of work intended by God.
God is the ultimate provider – the be all and end all. He ordained work only that it might glorify Him. You should aspire for work excellence only because excellent work glorifies God. Yet today, work excellence is pursued and exalted above the God it is meant to glorify. The means has become an end.
This is the Satan’s greatest deception to make you think that you are holding the net and catching fish, that you are in caught. The reality is after awhile, you can no longer let go of the net. The ‘success’ of your day has solely determined by the amount of your catch. All you begin to think about is how to catch more and more fish. At this point, you’re caught in your own net. The fish you caught really baits you. In the name of efficiency, we have begun to compromise everything – our distinction (love, compassion, mercy, grace, justice), our relationships (God, family, friends), our being (our principles, purpose, personhood). Yes, we have compromised EVERYTHING!
God not only cared about the workplace, but He wanted to be right in the centre of it. Jesus can and wants to use our workplaces not only to share His word, but also to bless you and those who work with you – if only we would stop striving and trying so hard on our own. He wants us to stop getting all consumed with the fish, and stop relying on ourselves or our nets but rather, be guided by His word, His principles, His wisdom, His direction, His purposes, in all that we do.
Blessed is the man who ceases to strive and know that God is God.
-Taken from the article titled ‘God and the Marketplace’ by J.Kirk Tan, CEFC
Recognise you need to hear what God has to say- you’re not going to figure it out – life is too complex
Stop complaining, be thankful, remember God’s goodness then listen carefully
Knowing about grace and experiencing it are two different things. Grace, when truly experienced, transforms you. We experience grace when we reliase how badly we’ve messed up, how ugly we are, how we do not deserve anything but JUDGEMENT from God and yet God chooses to bless us greatly!
Grace is getting what we do not deserve and mercy is not getting what we deserve.
Today the rewards of a job have become the all-consuming focus of a person’s life – we fight, fume and frustrate ourselves over it. Our identity, self-worth and self-esteem become tied up in our work. Our work becomes our security, the measure of success, our significance, status and substance. This was NEVER the purpose of work intended by God.
God is the ultimate provider – the be all and end all. He ordained work only that it might glorify Him. You should aspire for work excellence only because excellent work glorifies God. Yet today, work excellence is pursued and exalted above the God it is meant to glorify. The means has become an end.
This is the Satan’s greatest deception to make you think that you are holding the net and catching fish, that you are in caught. The reality is after awhile, you can no longer let go of the net. The ‘success’ of your day has solely determined by the amount of your catch. All you begin to think about is how to catch more and more fish. At this point, you’re caught in your own net. The fish you caught really baits you. In the name of efficiency, we have begun to compromise everything – our distinction (love, compassion, mercy, grace, justice), our relationships (God, family, friends), our being (our principles, purpose, personhood). Yes, we have compromised EVERYTHING!
God not only cared about the workplace, but He wanted to be right in the centre of it. Jesus can and wants to use our workplaces not only to share His word, but also to bless you and those who work with you – if only we would stop striving and trying so hard on our own. He wants us to stop getting all consumed with the fish, and stop relying on ourselves or our nets but rather, be guided by His word, His principles, His wisdom, His direction, His purposes, in all that we do.
Blessed is the man who ceases to strive and know that God is God.
-Taken from the article titled ‘God and the Marketplace’ by J.Kirk Tan, CEFC
Monday, August 15, 2005
Hewlett Packard?!
Went to HP to meet the APJ Training Manager. Hmm she is a nice lady. Somehow I feel that boss has overpromise & oversell. We are only good in HICIP, not all the training modules that HP offers.
He claimed that we are capable to deliever any training in AP. this 'we' includes me! *faint*
'I am not too sure with all the modules', I said. But boss told Celest, we are GOOD in everthing! Gosh.. after the meeting, boss told me not too be too honest. haiz..
I think I dun like to bull-shit too much. Boss has overdone it. I feel so umforfotable. It is something against my belief. *sob sob*
The 'best' part is HP will enrol me in this AP Train-the-Trainer course in Oct. Hmm thought I hope to leave this place soon, how am I to tell my boss that I dun wan to commit in such thing?
It is a good opportunity for me to expose to new stuffs and working wid big mnc like HP is always a dream to me. But I know deep in my heart is that my boss wont want me to involve too much in this training business. His purpose of involving me into this
TTT thing is to establish our company network.
Haiz...i dunno.
He claimed that we are capable to deliever any training in AP. this 'we' includes me! *faint*
'I am not too sure with all the modules', I said. But boss told Celest, we are GOOD in everthing! Gosh.. after the meeting, boss told me not too be too honest. haiz..
I think I dun like to bull-shit too much. Boss has overdone it. I feel so umforfotable. It is something against my belief. *sob sob*
The 'best' part is HP will enrol me in this AP Train-the-Trainer course in Oct. Hmm thought I hope to leave this place soon, how am I to tell my boss that I dun wan to commit in such thing?
It is a good opportunity for me to expose to new stuffs and working wid big mnc like HP is always a dream to me. But I know deep in my heart is that my boss wont want me to involve too much in this training business. His purpose of involving me into this
TTT thing is to establish our company network.
Haiz...i dunno.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
太可怕了
[云上太阳]
无论是住在 美丽的高山 或是躺卧在 阴暗的幽谷
当你抬起头 你将会发现 主已为你我而预备
云上太阳 它总不改变 虽然小雨洒在脸上
云上太阳 它总不改变 哈 它不改变
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每当听到这首歌时,很自然的我会想到他
是他弹着吉他,口中哼啊哼,开心地介绍这首歌给我
这是一种很美好,很温馨的经验吧!
我感谢神
因着他, 我更认识自己的不足和软弱
更重要的是我被迫成长!! =) 认识何谓爱
因着这首歌,提醒我在大四时依然要相信
云上有太阳 雨后有彩虹 的真理
昨天我遇见了他和她 心中尚有些许的尴尬
但我深信
在神的旨意和时间里 祂的计划在是绝对无误的!
无论是住在 美丽的高山 或是躺卧在 阴暗的幽谷
当你抬起头 你将会发现 主已为你我而预备
云上太阳 它总不改变 虽然小雨洒在脸上
云上太阳 它总不改变 哈 它不改变
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每当听到这首歌时,很自然的我会想到他
是他弹着吉他,口中哼啊哼,开心地介绍这首歌给我
这是一种很美好,很温馨的经验吧!
我感谢神
因着他, 我更认识自己的不足和软弱
更重要的是我被迫成长!! =) 认识何谓爱
因着这首歌,提醒我在大四时依然要相信
云上有太阳 雨后有彩虹 的真理
昨天我遇见了他和她 心中尚有些许的尴尬
但我深信
在神的旨意和时间里 祂的计划在是绝对无误的!
Monday, August 8, 2005
Wednesday, August 3, 2005
Sunrise vs Sunset
There will always be another sunrise tomorrow after the sunsets. It may not be the same as the one today, but u would have learnt to treasure it by then.
Tuesday, August 2, 2005
又是新的一个学年
开始了!开始了! 南大团契的活动开始了!
在昨天的小组里,我仿佛看见昔日的我,很想念昔日在这很温馨的家庭中与弟兄姐妹相处的日子...记忆里马上浮现 Xinyi, Dennis, Jinyong, Jiange, Lionel, Gayle, Weisin, abu, Jiewei, Suming, Ciying, huiying, dashu, xiuzhen ganshi 的样子... =)
我发现其中二人比以往更稳重, 更成熟了...不知道是不是担子重了,还是他们真的觉得自己该长大,学习大人该有的态度与样式.
我知道神会继续陶塑他们!
还有,神会在不同的时候兴起不同的人为祂的国度拼搏.
祂的恩典是足够团契的大大小小所用的!
在昨天的小组里,我仿佛看见昔日的我,很想念昔日在这很温馨的家庭中与弟兄姐妹相处的日子...记忆里马上浮现 Xinyi, Dennis, Jinyong, Jiange, Lionel, Gayle, Weisin, abu, Jiewei, Suming, Ciying, huiying, dashu, xiuzhen ganshi 的样子... =)
我发现其中二人比以往更稳重, 更成熟了...不知道是不是担子重了,还是他们真的觉得自己该长大,学习大人该有的态度与样式.
我知道神会继续陶塑他们!
还有,神会在不同的时候兴起不同的人为祂的国度拼搏.
祂的恩典是足够团契的大大小小所用的!
Monday, August 1, 2005
time to move on
I think maybe now it's time for me to move on le.
Not very sure but somehow I have more peace in me.
Not very sure but somehow I have more peace in me.
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