轻轻的我走了， 正如我轻轻的来；
我轻轻的招手， 作别西天的云彩。

悄悄的我走了，正如我悄悄的来；
我挥一挥衣袖， 不带走一片云彩。

So long farewell... Au revoir

23 Aug 03 - 30 Nov 05 一段宾主关系的结束

再过多几百分钟, 我即将与KKZ结束宾主关系, 画上事业旅程碑里的第一个休止符. 心中难免有些许感触, 毕竟我不是冷血的…

在这儿, 我曾经过着顽皮, 放肆 但却需要独立和有耐力的日子. 好坏参半.说不上极佳, 但也不至于超烂. 也许我尚未定性, 喜欢寻求突破,让生活有点新的尝试,新的冲刺. 简单扼要来说,就是不干安于现状; 与其说KKZ不好, 我宁可说是我的要求太高,太苛刻!

其实要踏出离职这步并不易, 绝非想做就做. 间中,内心也经历了十分多的挣扎. 我担心自己的去留为影响公司的存活,我害怕他们没有了我就像断了一条腿般, 我紧张我会背负着不义,反骨仔的罪名…一次又一次没有兑现的诺言叫我失望难过, 我讨厌欺哄, 恨恶不诚实. 这过程丝毫都不好玩, 朋友还取笑说为何我只是换一份工作却需要挂虑这么多…

我斟酌了许久,终于行动了. 其实没有心理准备我会再次投身于色彩打印这行. 神的惊喜常常是出人意料的. 我并不觉得能获得这份新工作是理所当然的;我深知若非神参与在其中, 一切将不可能成就!

提出辞呈时更让我感触良多.也许很多时候大家只会顾及个人的利害关系吧, 难道追求自己的梦也是一种错吗? 这梦极有可能会带我走上名利, 金钱的斗争, 甚至会迷失自我. 求神施与怜悯, 保守我的心,岂不知我活着应该像光明之子么,目的就是要将生命的道表明出来!

Random thoughts on 30th Nov

Today is the second last day at work... Hmm gonna to end this phase soon... mixed feeling

Just some thoughts...
It is a place where I started to practise what I hv learnt in SCE, NTU.
I get to learn and use OO programming extensively for my baby software, Focoltone ICCS.
I learn about color science and some other knowledges here.
I met a good teacher who is my ex-proj leader who guides me thru the process.
My VP aka boss wife is very capable, nice, smart and intelligent. My boss is so blessed to have her as wife.
I can always leave on the dot.
I can chat online, but the baseline is I gotta complete my work on time, which I do.
I always get disappointments with those unrealistic and irresponsible promises. hate it!
I am being exposed to those OEM and distributers.
Went to TBWA. Wow, it opens my eyes man...keke... Those designers are so pro =)
Cried twice in the office. both caused by 2 chinese colleagues...
Had nice & tasty food like nonya cuisine, rojak, lor mee, claypot laksa, YTF, prawn noodles etc.
Print stuffs from high-end laser printer 9500. The quality is very GOOD and we print like nobody biz!!
Attend HP TTT events... eye-opening opportunities.
People I met...from SIMTech, Canon, KM, Ricoh, HP, EFI, TBWA, A&P, KKZ... I am thankful for those encounters, be it good or bad.
Gave training to those management ppl and technical persons.
Did reverse engineering and able to decipher other systems...kekek

Cant possible name all... God has been with me all the time... There are times that I am nasty , evil or even down, but God has never leave me alone. Thank you, Lord.

Counting down to my hols...

I am counting down... lalalalal...

5...4...3...2...1... Another 5 days and I will be free!! Look forward to my one month holidays before my new journey starts!

Will be attending 3 camps and 1 Mission trip... Gonna to be super exhausted but shd be quite fun and enriching! Then gone for good for 2 weeks!! haha... finally booked the ticket...SQ...simply love it =)

Selling shoes in African?

A company manufactures shoes as well as selling it. There are these 2 salesperson, asked to go to Africa to assess the possibility of building a factory there to manufacture shoes. Here are the conversations between the salespersons and their boss after the recee and assessment.

Salesperson A: Boss, I think you will lose $$ if you were to open a factory there. Those Africans do not wear shoes at all. So it is very hard to sell? So just throw away the idea lar...

Salesperson B: Boss, I have a great news for you!!! I see the opportunity there... we have the whole market since no one has done it before. If everyone buys one, we sure make a big money!!! Quick come!!!

You see... we can have two different response w.r.t. certain thing. It depends on how you perceive it, either to be negative or super positive. We have the choice of deciding how we want to look at it.

So nothing is absolute except for our Lord God

18th Nov 05

Finally I tendered. =)

Thank God that it was a peaceful talk wid boss. Hmm he still tries to keep me and dun wan to accept the letter. Argh!! I have made up my mind, so better be firm with my stand.

Anyway, I look forward for the new challenges ahead. I cant 100% guarantee that I can cope very well in HP but I will try my best and rely on God's mercies to survive. HIS grace is sufficient for me, as what HE has promised.

Think unlikely for me to leave on 1 Dec 05. OOps... how how?

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Met CCF grads last night. Hmm surprisingly 11 people turned up. Good catch up and fellowship session. We went to rice table den kopi-ing at city link. Those are the buddies who went thru thick and thin with me while I was in NTU. Appreciate their presence and I really enjoyed the time spent together. Ah well, those were the days.. Now everyone has graduated and most secure a good job. God blessings indeed.

Just a question... which company u work for really make a difference to you and how people look at you? Haiz... sad to say YES but this is the REALITY!

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I reliased that I still like programming... I made some changes for my software baby, ICCS. Feel so proud and happy. Hmmm think I may not have this kind of chances le... Ah, i am the one who choose not to deal with this anymore... so dun complain ya =)

Yes... soon... Real soon... =)

Ok, shall dress up nicely to attend and give sincere blessings. This is an occassion which I should rejoice too. Hmm though I still have some reservations.

God, you know my thought. Please carry me thru. Amen

Confirmed!

Today I went to Hewlett Packard to sign the deal. Yes, it is confirmed;soon I will be HP staff, wish granted. I am grateful for the grace and mercy.

Why makes u think that you deserve to earn alot?! What makes u feel dat ur salary defines ur values?! Your company, status, how much u earn really can tell the world tat you are elite?! Nah..no no ...not at all.

Rem: we are only an instrument of God. He has a purpose for you when He puts u there. There will be tests and temptations, but place your trust in God and pursuit the sanctified life. We are called to be His children, so shine for Him in whatever you are doing!

I look forward to my December... a month w/o salary. Haa... hopefully can go for a trip...kekek...planning planning....

Lord God, I know I have to keep my promise. And I will ;D

Hello, may i speak to...

Hewlett Packard called. =)

:( ...

Thanks for the concern & Prayers, appreciate it *touched*

Note:
1. Is 'Enz' Ms Chu?
2. Hello YinYin, gd to 'know' it here

1.5 hrs long Interview at Hewlett Packard

Yesterday was an overwhelming day... hoho... feeling happy =)

Was on leave as going to HP at 2pm. Hmm thank God that I have peace in my heart, was calm and steady.

Spent the first hour with 3 engineers. At first cant really catch what that Angmoh said and i kept praying. Asked for wisdom to understand what he said. Thank God, I was able to catch his words. *cold Sweat* Then they started to bombard me with lotsa technical questions w.r.t color output, catridges, case studies, projects i worked on etc etc. Although there were times that I did not answer well but I am actually very grateful for the opportunity. Feel quite happy when that angmoh said very good for my answers ;p In fact, I reliase dat God has prepared me for every step. If not for last mth HP's TTT, i guess i wont be able to answer those qns confidently; if not for the projects i was and am doing, I wont know that much...etc etc... Why i always so narrow-minded?!! arghhh...

Then the manager came in and talked to me one-on-one. Well, she asked what my hobbies are, the positions i held during Uni days, how i think abt my job etc. It lasted .5 hr. Thank God for carrying me thru all these. 1.5hrs in all!! Never thought that I can talk for so long, like being interrogated like dat. Haa....

It was an interesting and fruitful interview. I learnt alot and I experience His presence all the time. Ah well, I have done my part, so I need to learn to put everything in His hands. Trust and be submissive to whatever outcome is. In short, I am happy with my performance today if compared to the Friday one. Not by myself, but God's blessings.

OK, wait patienly ba, LY =)

4 Nov 05

Feel a bit lazy at work. Shdn't hv come today since I hv already taken 1/2 day liao... Haiyooo...

Going to Clariant later. A bit nervous and worried, not knowing what will be asked and what will happen. =) But I trust that no matter what the outcome is, His plan is always the best. Btw, this marks the start of the new milestone in my life. I am thankful for dat.

so sleepy sia...