Updates =)

It has been quite some time since I last updated. 这几个星期简直就是玩暴了，生活过的太轻松，偶尔会觉得有点颓废。哈哈 =) 但也不至于浪费时间，毕竟我还是做了几件有意义的事。

Perth trip

We had a relaxing trip from 22nd till 30th Oct. It was the first time for me taking Jetstar with no water and food unless you pay! =)) A big thank you to Ms Xie who planned the itinery nicely and we dun really need to worry about anything!



Highlights

- Farmstay @ Uncle Paul & Auntie Marion's farm!! Though you can't really spot anyone in 2km radius, I enjoyed the quietness and the scenery. The cows, wildflowers, rabbits, kangaroos, plants, landscape reminds me of how great our God is. I like the Aussie BBQ and Breakfast too. Oh ya, I learnt about quisch this time round. Auntie Marion baked us apple pie and spinash quisch. Yummy!!!




- Green Pool, Elephant Rock. The view at these 2 places are simply awesome!! The sea color looked a bit bluish-greenish. Ehh... I do not know how to explain it but something like both side of the tides meet at one place.... sth like that. Haha... We did star jump there. I thought i was a bit crazy and wild...



- Sorrentos Quay. We saw 2 rainbows at one go. I can still remember that the rainbow colors are so defined and nice!! Whoohoo! It is not very often that you get to see 2 rainbows o =))


- Nice vineyard




与晨满月



She is one of the GEM in NG's family. Hehe... Glad to share Cheong & Ck's joy, afterall, we are one in the family. She is very chubby and has already drink 4oz of milk!! Imagine yaoyao only drink one and he is ONE y/o but YC is One mth only ;)

I like to sing lullaby to YC whenever I visit her. Kekeke... even CK dun do that, only gugu does. Hope YC grow up well with good health and obedient heart, of coz becoming a beautiful and wise girl!!!


Chitty-chitty Bang Bang @ Esplanade

To me, this musical is kinda special, not because it is about a flying car but it really has more to offer!! We can see so many props being used on stage, coupled with the songs and dances. Hmm definitely worth the ticket though I bought a rather cheap ticket. Kekek... call me cheapo, whatever it is, I am not as cultured but I hope to expose to this thing.

Watched it with ChinLee and Andrew. Hoho... Thank God for the courage. During our journey back, again I see the different views and value systems we both have. This discovery is still in time. Oh ya, I bought two shawls before the show!! haa..i reliase something, I also spend money whenever I go for a musical, be it on clothes and shoes. Haha.. terrible


Malacca trip

A big thank you to CiYing, and her family for their hospitality and kindness!! I enjoyed myself though we didn't really do much in Malacca! Going out for excursion is not my trip objective but more for a relaxing and makan trip. In short, I have achieved both my aims which are having meals @BeiZhan and Nonya food!! Oh ya, I found out that the duck noodle and kaya toast also very nice, satay celup is a test of faith... kekek...

I would say the faimly is truly very nice to me. From the conversation we have esp during Drama cum tea time and over the meal, they will make sure that I am well taken care of. Kekek. I observe something, simple can be very beautiful if you choose to believe that ;)) We do not need to be that complex and difficult to ourselves in our lives. As long as you do your part and be responsible cum accountable to God et others, that shall be it. XiaoYing is one of those very optimistic type, to me, she is like a little young sister but she shows her dignity and authority when she is with the younger ones. So what does it tell us? 在什么样的情况下就做什么样的人


If you give a mouse a cookie @ BlackBox

This is something different. They do not have a big cast and crew except THREE people who are running behind and appearing on the stage!! It is interesting to see how they present the whole story. The children are fascinated with the 'mouse'!! Haha... Also, another worth mentioning part is they have Q&A session after the play. It allows the audience to post any sort of questions and the cast are there to answer the queries.

If you give a mouse a cookie, he will ask for milk; If you give a mouse milk,, he will ask for a napkin... so on and so forth... There is a series a book by Laura Joffe Numeroff

Went with Wen, WoonChair & Kaiyue... kekeke... I do not need to pay =))


Teaching in CG17

I was supposed to teach the kids on James Lesson 6 - Patience (Wait). After drilling much, I must admit that I do not have any idea on how to bring across the message. It was so stressful!! So I told myself to spend whole day (saturday) at home to prepaer for the lesson. To look up on the commentary, read bible, find picture and relevant info online, laying out the info using ppt, rehearsing ... waaa.. it really took me a good 5 hours to complete that! Still, I was worried that students dun like it and find it BORING. haha...

Sunday morning, I cabbed to church so that I can have more time for prreparation. I truly thank God for the lesson delievry. I feel that God's spirit was with us and I thought all went well. At least we tried something new by getting people to share on the topic, showing online clip and putting more interesting picture in the slides!! Thanks to Getty Images!

I must admit that preparing and brainstorming is not easy and it is so time and brain juice consuming! The best part is you wont know how receptive the kids be!! Having said so, I must also say I enjoy teaching and preparing for it though I am not really gifted, I think. But I am willing to try and I hope it inspires others to step out and do so!! I was complaining that I am so scared coz I dunno how to teach but someone said: you will scared one mer? ahahah... so funny. Maybe my tough outlook tells a different story :)

Anyway it would be my last lesson for CG17 till the next notice... and I wonder when will it be. OK, I already decided that I shall take up one of the DG subgroup and lead the fellow students. Maybe, i shall take on a module to teach too!! Yippie, hope they wont feel sad... haha...


Meeting

The feeling just creep in quietly. I am not too sure since when I feel very awful whenever I attend church EXCO meeting. The feeling sucks. Somehow I feel more and more reluctant to attend the meeting coz I find myself a redundant person. Heee... I do not mind leading and attending CG17 or even DG meeting, maybe not EXCO meeting ba. We are supposed to be a good steward before God and take care of the nitty gritty stuffs. But sometimes too much details are able to kill a person!! Kekek... Just grumbling, I know we need to be that detailed la. Could it be I no longer like to be a leader? The urge has subsided? haa.... Maybe maybe... time to fade off and be faithful in doing other stuffs. Stay focus!


Nokia 6120

I accidently dropped my hp into a pool of water! Guess what, it is my new Nokia HP and it has been with me for less than 3 weeks! I was so careless and super panicky. I used papers to wipe and trying hard to power up. How silly I am! Colleague told me not to power up till it is all dry up, if not, it will be short circuit lo. True enough, the LCD went off though the hp is able to start up. Ok, 2 days. I will give myself two more days before knowing the fate of my new hp. Ciying was so humourous. She was saying probably God is hinting something?! Could it be I forgot to give tithe or... haha.. Yaya, i forgot to give for Oct & Nov. So i guai guai brought my tithe offering to church on Sunday, hoping that by the time I try to on my hp again, it will work...

In fact, even if it doesn't function properly, I wouldn't blame anyone except myself. Maybe it's a lesson to learn. After 2.5 days wait, i press the button. Whoohoo, the LCD screen was lit up, so thrilled!! Kekek... then slowly i reliase that it is unable to detect the SIM card and thus no connectivity. It is as good as a useless phone! Haa... ok, time to get on my way to Nokia Care Center. hehe...

What a wait... 2.5hrs for 5 min servicing and it takes another 3-5 days before I got back my phone!! God is mischievous. So happen that I was teaching a topic "Patience in Suffering" last Sunday, haa... God speaks to me in real life. A lesson on WAIT


Random

Recently heard about the break-ups. Hmm why is human relationship so fragile and vulnerable? Is it because we have different needs and wants in various stages of our lives and thus the break-up will make things better?

Dear friends, I admire your courage to end your relationship and I want to assure you that God will take you through the journey, be it a dark deep valley or green pasture or even cold mountain ;) Each of everyone of us has our own set of problems which we do not go around and tell all but we do share with some close friends. God is impartial, He gives sunshine and He gives rains. In between these two, there is a rainbow to bridge it together. We are not too sure how long will the rain last but we can sure that God will grant us endurance and grace as we journey with Him in faith.


December is coming!!

A couple of stuffs which I look forward to from end Nov till year end.
- Meet up with Xinyi & Gayle
- Sg Buloh Excursion
- A Crazy Christmas play
- Lust, Cautious & Heroes & Golden Compass?
- First Half Marathon
- EQ & YJ + Khar Hoa's wedding
- Bonus Bonus Bonus
- Shanghai trip
- Many more... haha....

Concert & Cabaret

I reliased the power of Mr M last weekend, it really brings some conveniences and leisure. Ya? =)

Eric Moo concert @ Max Pavilion
Had a nice time, singing along with the crowd. I enjoyed myself, as compared to caiqin concert. At least I can relate better to those songs. It brought back my good old memory during primary & secondary days. Yeah, I grew up watching SBC dramas and listening to xinyao.
Qiu HaiZheng and Fang Wenlin were the guests. Whoohoo, like their fei yang de qing chun. Too bad Yi Neng Jing wasn't here. Ah well, good to see them on the stage again.

Kumar The Queen @ Esplanade
I don't really know Kumar, let alone his talkshow. But since CL jioed, I just went with them. It was a hilarious show. Admire his courage to admit he is actually a gay and dare to make fun of Lees & PAP. Quite daring!! But he was a bit rough too, those vulgarities and silly jokes, I really take my hat off!! The audiences enjoyed the jokes he made, in a way it shows that we agree with him and identify with his thought. Probbaly the obvious difference is we do not dare to comment and protest openly, else we will end up in jail!

Also, I must highlight a great observation for these 2 events. The former event started @ 730pm while the latter one commenced @8pm. Guess what?! Most of the concert-goers are late! Some came in @830pm... Tsk tsk. Horrible. But those who attended Kumar's show, by 755pm, it is already 98% full. Kumar even teased the latecomer and embarrassed them by saying "Ok, the show will wait for you"... Haha... Let me analyse a bit. Could it be the audience crowd is different? Could it be the venue which makes the different? Hoho...

Something happy to share!
New addition in the family, ms Ng Ee Chen. =) Praise God for His grace and blessings to Cheong & CK ;) She is so lovely, resembling her mum more. Kekeke... Too bad I cant see her everyday...

Last note, life is all about making choices. You have the choice and no one else can force you into any decision!! Rev Liu Yu Jiang also mentioned something during last Sun sermon. As for follower of Christ esp Youth leaders, there are 3 traits which you need to observe:
1. Independent thinking
2. Control your own emotion
3. Dare to make decision

Ya, never look back and always put your hope in God. Trust that actually God was and is with you when you make any moves. Was He not there when you face life challenges? No, He was always there and He is, forever He will be.

I wonder, what do I hope for in life? *puzzled*

An entry for you

Dear Mr Coke,

This would be my last time blogging at my current cube near 6C17. I am shifting to somewhere near 6C16, 2 aisle away from the current one.

I still remember what you said before when i lamented about the new cube size
7x8 -> 7x6 = 42 -> 4+2 = 6 -> 6 sigma = GOOD
What a silly formula =)

This is a cube whereby I have fond memory where people will just come by to discuss work, chitchat and gossip. Nice to see you guys around when it's tea break time. nice to have someone comeby to ask for coins for vending machine, nice to have someone pop by and tell me it's time to go home, and ya, chatting like no government like that. I will miss those days.

I thought of throwing the photo we took during poster fair, but i can't bring myself to do that. Probably I wont be putting up again in my new cube...

Recently so much has happenned and there are so much to tell in BPD in particularly WS but I guess I would not have the chance to do so. Perhaps there is no need to do so too.

OK, just want to be true to myself. I miss you, miss your presence, miss tea-break time with those kakis, miss homing time...

But I guess I shall put a stop to it. No matter how reluctant I am, I know I need to, as of now.

The past weeks has been tough, very tough. But God has never failed me, He carries me through. I hope that you are able to rely on God for granting you wisdom and grace in your daily lives. Ultimately He is the provider and we shall give glory to Him and let Him take the honour!

Hope you're well. Do continue your passion in the industry and sky the limits!

Cheers,
Pealow

沉闷的 Monday * 恩福满满的 Everyday

今天不想做正经事，觉得有点无聊

经过这么多年以后，终于能够与欣怡、金涌和嘉逊轻松用餐。之前其实也没有什么芥蒂了，毕竟都过了这么久，大家也更加成熟和理智吧！感谢上帝，这一顿饭，吃的很平静。感谢上帝，我周遭这些校园团契的朋友都是您所差派的天使。谢谢您 =)

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9 月7 日 FES大家庭聚会
依旧看到那几幅熟悉的脸孔，还有许多青涩年轻的脸旦，长江后浪推前浪，这是一个很好的现象。虽然见是见了面，满嘴的客套话，诚恳度有减低吗？我不知道咧！我只晓得那感觉已渐渐的疏离我，有点陌生，但也说不上是什么感觉。

9 月8日 双莹相会
终于等到与次莹单独吃饭、聊天、闲逛和看电影。这些日子以来，因着科技的发达，我们一般都是透过MSN, skype 和sms联系，缺少了些真实感。

谢谢上帝把这位朋友放在我身旁，时不时她会提醒我上帝在我身上那奇妙的恩典和再次向我肯定，我在神面前是珍贵的；更欣慰的是，她常说我们其实知道上帝是我们的超级保惠师 (super mentor) 以及他知道什么对我们最好，我们怎么可以质疑上帝的带领和野蛮的向他开出那无理的要求呢？哈... 我就是这样假厉害... 还亏我说要与上帝摔跤咧，真不知天高地厚，无知的小丫头！

Ratatouille，曾经想因一些的不愉快，罢看。真的有点气愤，之前的期待和兴奋多少也减去了一半。多亏次莹指点：真的有必要为着这样的人和理由而让自己这样懊恼吗？我承认，因为我在乎，所以我生气、恼怒；我选择了怒气和埋怨作为这事的了结。也许我的另一种回应能造就另一种结果uh，但我选择忠于自己。我想，他也选择忠于自己的决定吧！

9月9日 SHAPE RUN 2007
临阵退缩的意念曾在脑海里闪过，干嘛要早起，睡迟些啦。。。

好不容易等到9月9日，这是我第一个公开的处女跑，10km也! 担心身子不能负荷，害怕小腿会抽筋，万一晕倒扭伤该怎么办，这是又惊又险啊！

跑在 Esplanade Drive, Shenton Way, Prince Edward Rd 和 Marina South 的感觉还不错。边跑边心里哼着歌，慢慢的pace myself，告诉自己别着急，你的对手就是自己，尽力一鼓作气的将全程跑完，那便是对自己最好的交待，时间固然重要，但不是最重要的，毕竟第一次跑10km嘛！

主啊你配得一切的尊容赞美... 野地的花穿着美丽的衣裳... 我主与我同行... 在压力中仍能平静... 上帝的儿女何等有福... 心中充满平安和喜乐的跑... 奇怪的是，这回不比上周在HP x-country 时吃力，尽管路程较远些，但还是能从容，保持能耐的向终点奔去。 一路上看到一些选手冲啊冲，本小姐约在2.5km时，他们已经完成了7.5km， 不可思议也！有者先上路，有者等着人群疏散些才奋力向前进，有人中途上接不接下气，开始步行起来，有人则咬紧牙根继续上路，我属于后者。就这样，不知不觉完成了10km，对我而言，壮举咧！感谢上帝的保守，谢谢他赐予的能耐，真有点自豪！我好像花了1：12小时，没关系，已经很不错了。呵呵。。。

虽然疲乏，还是得要到上帝的殿去敬拜他。很高兴回到这个大家庭里！当天是圣餐主日。记得严牧师是这么祷告着：上帝啊，求你建立，扶持和医治我们每一个人。

我需要上帝的重建，再次建立我在他里面的忠心和信心。忧伤痛悔的灵，上帝并不轻看。

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上帝，

请原谅我常常把我的问题看得比你大。不顺意时就到你面前又哭又闹，满口埋怨和不忿的情绪冲斥我整个脑袋儿，我忘了你过去的恩典和所给予我的福分，忘了我的上帝是常常与我同行，悲伤时你与我共泣，欢笑时你与我同喜，别人都说有耶稣就足够，我自认我就是没有这样属灵，坦白说，我挺属世的。

求你教导我如何在跌倒的地方站立起来，尝试明了你的心意。

我心里是这样求的，但我知道当试探引诱和事情不顺我意时，我又会重蹈覆辙。您知道我的软弱，您知道我的心思意念，就求你刚强我，让我能如鹰展翅上腾，重新得力！

这样的祈求祷告，是奉主耶稣名求，阿门。

杯

我是一个杯子
当上帝要用我的时候，这些是一些基本的步骤

首先
他需要用双手把我拿起 大力的擦
用水、清洁剂和海绵又浇又搓
为要将我洗干净
这是净化的作用

若我是如此的不洁 上帝怎样用我呢
本以为这样的献上已是很难得
怎知道还要被洗涤一番
这是那门的道理啊

也许这过程一点都不好玩
有时甚至难耐不堪
但要知道在这清洗的过程
上帝的手从来没有离开过
他一直确保我不会溜出他的五指山
尽管有泡沫的浮现 污渍的痕迹尚存
也许不是那么的完美
他还是愿意用

当他清洗过后 也许还要稍加替我打扮一番
他要如何使用这杯
我一点概念都没有
那天我可能已有缺口
只望我能继续相信这主人不会弃我而去


TRUST

I find that the journey ahead is a bit tough. Today JE msged me these...

The journey is tough in wordly term... but it's enjoyment in spiritual terms... when you fully let go of what you can and want to hold... He will show you how the path to walk and how much more better it is to walk for Him than for yourself.
This is trust.

感冒

这回真的感冒了
病毒不知不觉地侵蚀我那以为不朽的身子

忽冷忽热
有时热得让我喘不过气来
更有好些时候我需要躲在厚厚的被子里取暖
有点吃不消

这场感冒到底要持续多久
到底病因何在
我可以撕破脸皮问个明白么
还是默默地等待免疫系统重新被建立

药 我需要解药
常言道 心病还需心药医 解铃还需系铃人
不管是什么病 药还是派得上用场

虽然久久一小病能促使我更爱惜那造物主所给的身躯
难道一定要生病才能理解吗

不惑 不安 不乐

你把我悄悄的升上天
然后再慢慢把我从那头摔下
这真的是你那深不可测的旨意吗

为我好 替我着想
对我有益 建立我对你的倚赖
可以不要这样折磨我么

没有 暂时没有
不至于粉身碎骨
你说你会在下面接着我
我相信你会
但是为什么要让我经历这难明了的历练

JQ5582

It has been with us for 33 years?! Wow, that's old uh :)

I remember standing at the back of the lorry while on our way home from popo's house. We sing on the lorry, singing in the wind. Haha.. so fun!!

I sure fall asleep whenever i sat on the lorry while Papa drove me to anywhere. Count 1..2..3... and you will find a pig beside the drive seat

This lorry went thru thick and thin wid our whole family and ya, the business. I am sure it travels more miles than I do, until now

It is aging. Its color changes from maroon to light Red and now it is a chilly red.

Mum told me papa sold it for 2k since he is going to wind up his business and enjoy his retirement?! Hee... that lorry still worth for 2k uh? kekek... initially he wanted to sell it at 3k but in the end... ah well, hope he spend the $$ wisely.

Darkest moment

It is simply too dark, you can hardly see anything albeit any light.

No ray, No hope, Only fear & tear

Simplt too scary and too much for anyone to go thru...

Musical vs Concert

The King & I

总觉得还是洋人唱歌剧比较棒，声音也较亚洲人憨厚些，音质的差距是显而易见的，也许这就是叫“偏见”吧！
这回坐的挺靠近舞台，连他们喷口水的一幕幕都能捕捉得很清楚，他们身上的小老鼠也若隐若现，脸上的瑕疵到无法看得很清楚，是厚厚的粉底在作怪吧 =)
因为先前没有看过电影版，所以对情节更为陌生；还好之前上网查询，其中的主要情节还不至于摸不着头脑

对她的音乐，没有特别回味无穷的，倒是对几位表演暹罗玩偶戏的配角有几分的敬意，他们把玩偶的精髓呈现在舞蹈、布偶和肢体语言上，发挥得淋漓尽致，赞！

《低音歌后- 蔡琴 -不了情演唱会》

迟到5分钟，哎，失策失策！岂能怪何小姐呢？小事小事。。。

她唱功了得，把上海、香港、台湾金曲等巨星们的代表作，诠释得丝丝入扣，有自己的特色和风味，又不失对原唱者的尊敬和赞许；她更向刘文正和邓丽君致敬。这是眼前的谦虚，抑或是背后的虚伪，我想只有上帝知道。 她很诚恳、用心、放足感情的诠释所有的歌曲。我庆幸自己还认识一些老歌金曲，还不至于满头雾水。

喜欢她的能言善道，在串联歌曲方面很流畅，不愧是块主持的料子。

以下是这场演唱会中我“惊人加意外”的发现：梁弘志那让蔡琴红透半边天的《读你》，其实是在描述他对圣经的爱和上帝的眷顾哦！

《读你》
读你千遍也不厌倦 读你的感觉像三月
浪漫的季节 醉人的诗篇 唔
读你千遍也不厌倦 读你的感觉象春天
喜悦的经典 美丽的诗篇 唔

你的眉目之间 锁着我的爱怜
你的唇齿之间 留着我的誓言
你的一切移动 左右我的视线
你是我的诗篇 读你千遍也不厌倦

读你千遍也不厌倦 读你

《天冷就回来》
当初想要看这舞台剧，绝对是因这对新谣的喜好。喜欢她的纯真，喜欢她的平凡，更重要的是，她带我回到小学和中学看第八波道的连续剧和那段抄写歌谱的日记。

你的倒影，爱的名字，让叶轻轻落下，陪我看日出，恋之xi, 新加坡派，一步一步来，当你回眸的那天起。。。

剧导很妙的把耳熟能详的歌曲穿插在故事情节里。老实说，我喜欢这部剧不是因为他们唱和演得赞，乃是因为我喜欢和熟悉的音乐在耳际边响起。

在短短的1个星期内观看两部舞台剧和一场演唱会，我最享受的是《天》，接着是《不》，《王》包围。我发现还是华文华语最能牵动我的心，谢谢上帝让我能掌握和明白这五千年来所遗留下来的文化遗产！

Galileo * CFH * Drained

<< Galileo >>

Becoz of YOU, I had a long wait
wait for your spec and POR to be confirmed
wait for you to be retrofitted and tested by EE
wait for the NVRAM values to be backup and restored
wait for HY to come back from meeting and tea break
wait for you to work properly and give me decent output
wait for you for more tweaking and FW checkin

Oh my, why is my life so closely knitted with you?
Didn't I have better to do and wait for?
* Sighz... *
Who told me to be in SCF group
My life will just be surrounded by Galileo, Mach4 and Music4 in the next 1.5 yrs!

Having said so much, the lonely Daimler is sitting on top on that empty box
waiting to be adopted by HY and PN
So poor thing uh...


<< Curry Fishhead >>

We went Coral Village Bistro for CFH, finally
Had CFH and Kangkong plus lime juice n coke
Hmm the dishes are OK but I prefer the kangkong
Whose silly idea to eat that CFH
It's me, NLY!!
Thanks for going with me, kind-soul

<< Drained >>

Feel mentally and emotionally saturated
Overwhlemed with fear and doubts
Confusion is there to disturb me further
I am calling it a QUIT
Please do not play me out
I am not sure I can take it positively
Today YOU revealed YOUR words to me again
Jer 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,
plans to prosper you and not to harm you
Plans to give you hope and a future
YOU don't bring me to the planning room as you make the blueprint for my life
Instead YOU rather let me follow blindly, not unknowing what is ahead
but to surrender myself before YOU and seek YOUR guidance
Like what others said: Leap of faith
I just pray that I can trust YOU wholeheartedly!

生病

好久没生病了，一年总会有一次这样的机会！不知是幸福还是咒诅。哈！当然是神的祝福啦 =)

因为生病 才知道身体安康的重要性
因为生病 才体会休息原来是不容忽视的
因为生病 才感受到那纯纯而甜美的呵护
因为生病 才明了这不只是关乎自己而已

KISS

Today i sent kaiyue to school. As I was about to leave, she kissed me. So sweet of her. I was kinda shocked and ya, thrilled.

Nobody told her to do so and i din request for one. Hee... God knows someone is in need for a hug and He sends angel to comfort me :)

Pealow speaks again...

<< 小莹子 >>
She will be back in less than 12 hrs!! She is a special and unique friend cum sister. We met in CCF and guess what, the frenship continue to blossom even after we graduated from NTU.

It is a precious frenship given by God. I trily appreciate her company all these while. Haa... what is more amazing is she always listens with patience(i hope so) while I rant non-stop.

Thank you for being there, always.

<< jie >>
I feel so proud of you. You're always so calm and steady while i seem to be so anxious and uncool while handling stuffs.

Maybe you really eat more salt than i do and I am always a xiao-mei in your eyes. Thank you for showing care and concern in your subtle way. You are not good in expressing in words but your actions and decisions tell alot!

I pray that you can continue to trust God for His guidance and providence in the days to come. We simply cant fathom God's plan but i hope that we two are sure that we are well taken and sheltered under His wings.

<< He provides >>
Jehovah Jireh. Ya, this is the tiny little voice i heard when I felt so loss before and after talking to wen and wc.

God will provide. Again God reassured me that He cares and He remembered. I feel so peaceful. Thank you, Father in heaven

<< Barriers >>
How many barriers are there? I really dunno. I expect some and I also hope that most will be cleared by the grace and mercies of our Lord, if He allows.

A bit unsettled though but slowly, God has made some ways and things may not as cloudy and gloomy as I thought.

Anyway, i enjoy being into it. After all, it has been quite some years...

Radical Disciple 彻底的门徒

Milenia walk >>
A nice dinner at Outback Steakhouse last Friday evening. It was a sweet one, feel quite comfy though. Enjoyed the food and the company, thank God.

The feeling was kinda weird and funny. Hee... :)

Zouk out >>
Yaya, a few of us went together. Guess what, we met Vincent there. OOps, poor wife.

Slip >>
With the possible schedule slip, we lose the motivation to work on Daimler esp Galileo development. What we did before may be a waste but what to do? It is beyond our control and no one expect this happen.
So I am looking up to RMT, hope it would bring more surprises!!

Grace >>
It is truly God's grace that I have peace and joy at work. Today I witness 3 different things in the office

1. Ms Ho: She was so angry until she kicked the door with her legs instead of using hands to push it. Then a FW engr called her while she was driving out for lunch. She sounded so agitated and angry
2. Mr Wong: Whenever he has bad headache and dun feel well, he knows that it is due to his high blood pressure. Yup, those are the sympthoms. He had late night teleconferences for consecutive nights. Poor thing
3. Mr Tay: He was so occupied with meeting esp those nozzle out and bubble issue. Not time to lunch with us and ya, no time to suan me. Hehe...
I would say be contented, God has given me the best than what I asked for. Be happy with what you have and live everyday to its fullest!

Healthy >>
Being healthy is important and when you are born healthy, you should be thankful for that! Heard about ZW's nephew, he has got lymphatic cancer. Poor baby and the mum. Feel sad for them.
On the other hand, I am thankful for Constance, Ernst and Heidi. They are all lovely gifts from God!!

SMS >>
I foresee a surge in my last mth sms...oops, been using it quite a bit. Oops... But what to do...

Radical Disciple 彻底的门徒 >>
I like the lesson on Wed (11 Jul), kinda interesting and thought-provoking.
Any idea what is kingdom and what does repent mean? In book of Matthew context
Let me recall. I might be wrong, blame my lousy memory... Kekek...

Kingdom: A legacy whereby it is set by God and HE is the governor. He is in charge!
Repent: Turn away from 1 life to another life, simply put, turn to God-centred life.

We, are easily distracted and sin knowingly/unknowingly in a split second. Ya, we always said we are unable to guard our thoughts, tongues, acts etc and sometimes we are 'forced' to sin when there's external disturbance. What is important is we should immediately end the silly thoughts/actions and ask God to help us to curb this!!

God has His wisdom in His word, we,Christians are not taught to be a hypocrite but someone who fear God and do what God honours.

Do not commit adultry: this does not restrict to only pyshical closeness but emotional
Do not divorce: What God has made together, let no man set apart. In old days, Jews used to divorce their wives as and when they want to. Sometimes it may even becoz the cooking is not nice or so. Scary uh...
Do not vow: True to self and God. Remember that you are always accountable to God on what you do/say/act
Do not worry abt tml: God has prepared what we need and aren't we more precious than a bird?! Look around, God even take care of those birds and flowers on the roadside, you think God will forget your need? Hehe... Also, those worries wont make you look younger and healthier. So cast all your anxieties on HIM k...
Judge: Do not judged or you will be judged
Lord: Who is the LORD of your life? One man cannot serve 2 lords.

I cant remember the beautitudes... Oops, shall update again.

What a price to pay if you want to be a radical disciple!! And are you serious you want to be Jesus's disciple? ;p

KINGDOM

>> I caught a baby bumble bee <<
This is a song which we sung during my hall 4 FOC. I miss those days

Bumble bee is home after 12 mths homemaker-life in Boston!
Still looked as usual ;) Skinny, elegant and as long-winded as before? Tomorrow we will know, after Corona meeting. Haha... Be prepared to bring more food in, who knows the meeting will last till lunch time? *puke*

She bought CT ice-cream latte from HPAM. Yummy!!! I get to drink coz CT gave me.

>> Kingdom <<
What is Kingdom?
Is it something very glorious or somewhere fully packed with people, and the Crown King is seated there, waiting to receive his honour?
If that is what you think, perhaps I can tell you what I understand recently on this 'Kingdom'
In bible, Jesus urged us to seek first His kingdom and His righteous and all others will be given to us. (Matthew 6:31-33)

Seek His kingdom = Live the way God commands, hold on to the principles and belief which HE imparts to us, live in the way that you can have His peace, love and joy present in your lives, seek His pleasure by not compromising on what He detests and honour God in the way that pleases Him
Is our God too hard to satisfy? ;p Up to your discretion.
Our God knows us incl our limiatation and weaknesses. Having listed down our inadequacy and imprefection does not disqualify us for meeting His requirements, on the other hand, it shows that how much we need Him to be present in our lives and guiding us through. His grace is very much needed ;p

Shiroi Kyoto 白い巨塔

"You shall not murder”(Exodus 20:13)
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DO you know 'MURDER' is equal to 'ANGER'? HINT: Matthew 5:21-22
Why would God compares anger to muder?

Believe it or not, we murder someone intentionally or unintentionally!! It can be in words, action, thoughts and even your look! Of course righteous anger is allowed but how to define it? Please refer back to bible

Denial
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She said she refuse to go for lessons, she doesn't want to listen to God's word coz she has her own bitterness in life and unable to fully forgive the person who hurt her and her family. She sulked.

This is the first time I came across such case whereby she is furious with her encounter and refuse to acknowledge God's sovereignty.

What I can say is 'Everyone has his/her set of problems and suffering, Sometimes we just cant compare our suffering and rendezvous'. May God's glory be shone thru in our everyday lives.

Shiroi Kyoto 白い巨塔
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Cast: Karasawa Toshiaki 唐沢寿明 as Zaizen Goro 財前五郎, Eguchi Yosuke 江口洋介 as Satomi Shuji 里見脩二
Director: Satsuo Yamamoto

Indeed it is a thought provoking drama. It captures the thirst for fame, status and power in the all-time favourtite, respectful professional i.e. Medical officer. Interestingly, it also features a doctor who hold on to his own belief even if he is being threaten to be stripped off from the university and all his hard-work in research field will go down to the drain.

What is the use of trying so hard to get something you yearn for, having sacrificed your integrity and belief? And what is so good about achieving your target by all means and yet you reliase that it is all meaningless? What is more sarcastic is you do not get a chance to enjoy 'your fruit of labour'!!! So ironic.

Anyway, I enjoyed watching this series. Good job!!

>> Here is a review...
Interestingly, there is no clear-cut right or wrong in this series, and most characters walk in a gray-zone as to position the viewers in the judge's seat, or perhaps more appropriately, the characters themselves. While the ending is somewhat predictable due to foreshadowing, it executes the subtleties perfectly and provides a satisfying resolution along with some food for thought.
- by greybear on 25 April 2004

Random...

CG17 Retreat
上帝是供应的源头。上周五周六的‘退修会’承蒙神的眷顾，哪怕是仅仅的二十来个，他们的出席已经是一种鼓励了！
他们的确很可爱，也许不都是长相的可爱，是因心地的单纯而美丽吧 =）

第一次和sheila配搭，她紧张得很。谢谢她愿意在十万火急之下答应成为司琴，虽然她不是无处可挑剔，但她那愿意尝试的心态真叫人鼓舞！老实说，我已经很久没有和这么嫩的司琴配搭了；这其中我学到了要谦卑、包容和忍耐，这可不是单向的，而是双方都必须有一颗诚恳，愿意相互学习和调适以求更完美的呈现。这二十几年来碰上不少司琴，有很优越的，也有挺木纳的，呵呵，钢琴这玩意儿，真是有趣。让我在此一一列下：
加利利：楚云、丽娴、丽慧、春凤、玲玲、玉真
南大：恩奇、次莹、欣怡、lionel
BPMC: May、敏乐、莉婷、晓恩、颂欣、子欣、秀慧、Vivian、Sheila

屈指一数，的确有好几位很不错的司琴，当然还是恩奇最棒，与他最有默契！不用为他预备乐谱，也无须告诉他我要什么key，他似乎能明了似的。哈！难得难得,真的没得顶 ;p
宇军、恩礼、yvonne、gabrielle的参与也为这活动注入强心针，他们还是很关注小弟小妹的成长。原本有点泄气的我，刹那间被充气，继续上腾
与学生们分享了‘Les Choristes’这部法文片子，起初还很担心他们的反应。感谢神，一切都还好，他们都还很喜欢电影的题材，沉醉在美妙的音乐和歌声里，何等喜乐的享受啊！

Daimler
I feel kinda angry!! What's wrong if I say pmode/cmap group is the bottle neck?! Our mode of development is sequential development, we have to wait for their print resources before we can proceed on our imaging work. What if they take their own sweet time to develop maps, does SCF team have sufficient time to generate maps and get it tested before pushing it into FW?!! When things screwed up, people just point to us...

So what if she is senior?! I already told her that one of the map is wrong and they have no urgency to change it. Then when Jeff asked, I just voiced out my concern. Did I do anything wrong?! Even if you are senior, but when things are not right, we should highlight it. Though I am very much junior, but it doesn't mean we can share our thought and views.

Somebody said they wanna change the L/G. Are you kidding?? This will waste all my effort on Galileo and gotta start from scratch. Sure anot? Unless you give me ample of lead time or get moer resources to help, else you better drop the idea!!!

White Tower
Have you ever thought of why you want to be an engineer? Your target is earn respect, money or status or just a mere objecive that is to get things engineered properly and cost efficient?

Guard your heart as you continue to immerse in this world, every single thing is changing, gradually. Be on your guard as the greed and yearning for everthing will slowly creep into your life and take your most precious away.

Kaiyue
The moment I hold your little hand, I feel the warmth
When we are on our way to carpe diem, I feel so honoured to bring you there
When we board the bus, I feel so proud of you as you are so obedient

You are especially sweet when you smile, and your dimples are shown on ya little face
You always try to hide and pretend not to see me but how much can you hide

I am so blessed to have you!!

Ali Baba and Mr Coke
Finally both are out of sight in WS aisle, I do miss both of them

Ali Baba - He was the one who interviewed me. I was so thankful that his accent is understandable. His strength is in Statistic and ya quite decisive and always push for effective solution. He can be quite aggressive as well. Probably one bad point is he listens mostly to what seniors' say, he doesn't really care how others think. I must thank him also for providing me opportunities to go to San Diego. His words and comments are quite encouraging sometimes.

Mr Coke - We joined on the same day. At first I didn't really think we will be close but guess what. Haa... Anyway, we are still not very close. He is one of those I will gossip most since he is quite harmless. Among the peer colleagues, only 2 of us chat online with one another. He likes to ask things like... Pealow, do you have coins? What are you eating today? Tea break? Etc :) Whenever we attend offsite course, I always need to chop places for him as he is always late. Haa... We even become homing buddy. Haiz, I feel a bit sad ar coz I was the one who encouraged him to leave and ask Uncle seet to recommend him a job in ST and guess what, he is in ST now. Anyway, I am glad to have him around for the past 1.5 yrs.

OK, here is my team photo. Guess who is who... Hehe...



Farewell for Ali Baba and Mr Coke

188... Mr coke...

《188之旅》
我又要开始学习自己上路，踏上188的路程。没有熟悉的身影在身旁徘徊和做伴，接下来的日子会如何呢？我还是可以随身携带耳机和书本，轻松上路，学习欣赏身边的一景一物，重新确认和体验万事都互相效力，叫爱神的人得益处，就是按他旨意被召的人 :)

我相信没有一头栽下去是明智之举，至少结尾不会太难堪和尴尬。压抑是辛苦的，但我觉得这是一种选择；这背后的道理就是你必须承担你的抉择所引发的种种后果。感谢上帝的带领和保守，这纯纯的情谊还是很出人意外的吧！至少我挑战过自己的信念，欲望和需要，认识和了解上帝总是能接着不同事物事件改变你的想法，让你真真实实的与上帝和自己摔跤。

《引擎》
不管多拙多逊，还是要继续下去！

《单亲妈妈》
这真是个荒谬之建议！为了解决人口老化的问题而鼓励有学识的女性成为单身妈妈，好可怕啊！难道他没有考虑到这其中所引发的社会问题和上帝所设立的家庭伦理和婚姻的完全吗？什么大趋所势，荒唐！

《不再忧愁》

终于那不必要的误会解除了！感谢上帝！心里踏实了许多，也更加深了彼此的了解。大家处事和回应的方法大有不同，都怪上帝造了各式各样乱七八糟的人？非也！=）因着我们的不同和有别，才显出我们更需体谅和相互接纳、包容和了解。

谢谢上帝！是的，要学习谦卑和爱人。上帝如何掩面不看我的罪，我也要被原谅和原谅人。

昨晚的“门徒”被迫背诵经文
箴言15：13 心中喜乐 面带笑容 ， 心里忧愁 灵被损伤
箴言15：18 暴怒的人能挑起争端 忍怒的人能止息纷争

《lapis surabaya》
arthjie 从印尼带了一个大的lapis surabaya给我，好受宠啊！只有我有哦，哈哈 =）

《引擎》
赛车手是寂寞的，因为他们在赛场上只能为自己而争战，一心想着要赢，绝对不能有一丝输的想法。若是他能学到不止是为自己而奔驰，而是也为了其他人和更高更伟大的梦想奔驰，他将能够突围，让自己不经意的晋升一级，发挥到极点！

别轻看自己对自己的约定哦，也要记得你需要努力完成约定哦，次郎！ *勾勾手指*