在一種工作模式下久了，發現自己在原地打轉，生命力減弱了，就是走下坡。排不出生命力，比排不出其他東西更可怕!
taken from 王文华, Anything
Monday, October 31, 2005
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Back to office againz...
Finally I am back, bagged 2 certs... kekek...not bad at all, with the help of another 3 AP trainers... haha...
I enjoyed myself for the past 5.5 days at HP TTT event. Good exposure and encounters with the people there.
Being one of the Asian roses there, I gotta learn to adapt to this multicultural event. Guess I am the youngest and participant with least experiences ba.
Met this office manager, Ms RM. She is a kind and nice lady. Helping her German boss to setup Intracon and taking care of everything. Quite a capable lady. She was HP employee b4 joining Intracon. WOw, she told me how she worked herself up from a technical person, to sales, presales person ,then working Internet campaign stuffs...and she job hop 2-3 years. Amazing!! She tried pretty loads of stuffs and have quite a number of exposure like giving a lecture to 300-400 audiences. Wowow... She shared her views on her previous jobs and ex-employer. In addition, she is a sporty lady. She plays gold, tennis, badminton, rollerblade, swim etc. Adventurous sia...
I dunno how to describe the feeling w.r.t TTT event in words. I am just feeling thankful and grateful for this opportunity. Thankful for the people, courseware, food, luxury et privilege. Is HE preparing me for something greater and more exciting? I dunno. But I look forward to find out more.
Thank You, Father!
I enjoyed myself for the past 5.5 days at HP TTT event. Good exposure and encounters with the people there.
Being one of the Asian roses there, I gotta learn to adapt to this multicultural event. Guess I am the youngest and participant with least experiences ba.
Met this office manager, Ms RM. She is a kind and nice lady. Helping her German boss to setup Intracon and taking care of everything. Quite a capable lady. She was HP employee b4 joining Intracon. WOw, she told me how she worked herself up from a technical person, to sales, presales person ,then working Internet campaign stuffs...and she job hop 2-3 years. Amazing!! She tried pretty loads of stuffs and have quite a number of exposure like giving a lecture to 300-400 audiences. Wowow... She shared her views on her previous jobs and ex-employer. In addition, she is a sporty lady. She plays gold, tennis, badminton, rollerblade, swim etc. Adventurous sia...
I dunno how to describe the feeling w.r.t TTT event in words. I am just feeling thankful and grateful for this opportunity. Thankful for the people, courseware, food, luxury et privilege. Is HE preparing me for something greater and more exciting? I dunno. But I look forward to find out more.
Thank You, Father!
Friday, October 21, 2005
眼张得更大了...
这几天来我有机会认识和看到更大的一幅图...
原来我已经慢慢的走进世界之窗...在一个小岛上有机会体验什么叫globalisation, 跨文化, 这才搞清楚何谓 cosmopolitan city 也!
惊喜的发现原来自己参与的训练课程,所教授的内容皆属国际化也... 拖惠普的福,我有机会晋升在这舞台,成为其中的一份子! 我从来没有想到我能够有机会接触这一切.
视野也因此更宽广了, 更不愿意拘束在这小小的舞台, 我想和他们分一杯羹,争取出位的机会! 这种欲望挺可怕的hor!
一顿饭竟花上1000元,为免太夸张了吧?! 这样吃可以吃掉一个人一个月的薪金, 似乎有点奢侈, but who cares?! 只要不管你我口袋的事,管他呢... 大企业的雇员就可以这样浪费吗? 世界变了,难道他们才是人上人,非得要大鱼大肉才能招待他们? 非也! 在神眼中,人人平等. 只是神给予每个人的计划不同,但这一切在神眼中都是好的. 这是我一直以来的信念,我也盼望我能一直持受下去.
原来我已经慢慢的走进世界之窗...在一个小岛上有机会体验什么叫globalisation, 跨文化, 这才搞清楚何谓 cosmopolitan city 也!
惊喜的发现原来自己参与的训练课程,所教授的内容皆属国际化也... 拖惠普的福,我有机会晋升在这舞台,成为其中的一份子! 我从来没有想到我能够有机会接触这一切.
视野也因此更宽广了, 更不愿意拘束在这小小的舞台, 我想和他们分一杯羹,争取出位的机会! 这种欲望挺可怕的hor!
一顿饭竟花上1000元,为免太夸张了吧?! 这样吃可以吃掉一个人一个月的薪金, 似乎有点奢侈, but who cares?! 只要不管你我口袋的事,管他呢... 大企业的雇员就可以这样浪费吗? 世界变了,难道他们才是人上人,非得要大鱼大肉才能招待他们? 非也! 在神眼中,人人平等. 只是神给予每个人的计划不同,但这一切在神眼中都是好的. 这是我一直以来的信念,我也盼望我能一直持受下去.
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
stupid system
in the end i din take any tests. Could not log in and just stuck there. NO one there to help, eventho there are instructors around. Feel abit disappointed actually.
Going or a team building session cum seafood session at tanah merah. heard got cray fish, prawn, sri lanka crab, chicken, deer meat etc etc... Hmm in fact not dat keen to go since most angmohs n cant really click... haiz... I prefer going home to sleep actually. feel so fat after 3 days of traininfg..eat, sit and listen... sure gain weight one... then last night still had muddy mudpie ;p ...cham cham cham...
i am exploding soon... help help...
Going or a team building session cum seafood session at tanah merah. heard got cray fish, prawn, sri lanka crab, chicken, deer meat etc etc... Hmm in fact not dat keen to go since most angmohs n cant really click... haiz... I prefer going home to sleep actually. feel so fat after 3 days of traininfg..eat, sit and listen... sure gain weight one... then last night still had muddy mudpie ;p ...cham cham cham...
i am exploding soon... help help...
I am attending HP TTT training event now at PSA building... Feeling a bit tiredd and exhausted. Although I just sit there and lern, i do feel tired. All info and knowledge are kinda solid and important.Can my brain take dat much info? hoho... dunno...
Hmm feeling a bit inferior as I sit in the training room. Most are angmohs, experienced somemore. I am one of the 2 girls. there is this Aussie angmoh, quite arrogant, looking down on people like me since I am the most junior here?! Come on, I can also be knowledgable after 12 years lo... argh...Hmm... actually feel a bit extra being here.Not too sure where can I go after attending this.
taking exam soon... what if i fail the test? cnat imagine dat...
Juz an update. One door - ST is closed. I think I hv peace afte gd fren told me. =)
thank God...ok...5 more min to exam... haiz.. so what if i am certified again?!
Hmm feeling a bit inferior as I sit in the training room. Most are angmohs, experienced somemore. I am one of the 2 girls. there is this Aussie angmoh, quite arrogant, looking down on people like me since I am the most junior here?! Come on, I can also be knowledgable after 12 years lo... argh...Hmm... actually feel a bit extra being here.Not too sure where can I go after attending this.
taking exam soon... what if i fail the test? cnat imagine dat...
Juz an update. One door - ST is closed. I think I hv peace afte gd fren told me. =)
thank God...ok...5 more min to exam... haiz.. so what if i am certified again?!
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
4 large pizzas, sotong balls, chicken nuggets, breadtalk cake, chips, titbits, packet drinks...that's what we had for last xiaozu @ NYH
Around 25+ turned up last night. We eat, share and crack jokes. Oh ya, we celebrate JJ and YN 's bday. Was a heartwarming session. Everyone get to share abt their lives.
Many a times, we struggle, & we feel peace, we complain, & we cont grumbling, we grief, & we lol etc etc. God has never forsaken us at any moment. HE is always with us. How comforting it is to know such a fact. We had lots bible studies but the most important part is how do we apply it in our daily lives. The trials and tests are simply so real and too tough for us.
God's grace is sufficient for us. The father will give u the things u need when HE really think there is a need. Aren't all the daddy teh same?
One more sem to go =)
Around 25+ turned up last night. We eat, share and crack jokes. Oh ya, we celebrate JJ and YN 's bday. Was a heartwarming session. Everyone get to share abt their lives.
Many a times, we struggle, & we feel peace, we complain, & we cont grumbling, we grief, & we lol etc etc. God has never forsaken us at any moment. HE is always with us. How comforting it is to know such a fact. We had lots bible studies but the most important part is how do we apply it in our daily lives. The trials and tests are simply so real and too tough for us.
God's grace is sufficient for us. The father will give u the things u need when HE really think there is a need. Aren't all the daddy teh same?
One more sem to go =)
Monday, October 10, 2005
Thursday, October 6, 2005
my homeeee...
Hmm had a 2.5hrs long project hour. Haiyo, keep repeating the same old stories.I am getting sicked of it.
Somehow I found myself drifting away from the team. Hmm a bit half-hearted and have no drive to take part in the discussion & execution. Haiz, I should not behave like dat. Getting more and more negative. Hmm they still do not update us with the business progress. A bit sad tough. Maybe WL has his own reasons ba, so be it.
I met dis chinese guy, DX. very clean looking PHD-to be. Haa... wid a spec, look very approachable and nice. Haa.. but when he starts to speak up, hmmm some points being deducted...kekek =)
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Had a fun dazu last night. Although it was only a bible quiz and bible verse memorising night, I simply enjoy the fellowship. Think i must confess a bit, sometimes i think I am being too real to them. As in i laugh, complain, shout whenever i want to. Haa... i can be very sarcastic and particular at times. Really thankful that they accept me as part of them.
One sem down. I have another sem left. I think I will miss everyone one in ccf and the moments we spend tog. I called it my home as this is where i belong. Their love, acceptance, caring, forgiveness and sometimes scoldings...haha ;p
Somehow I found myself drifting away from the team. Hmm a bit half-hearted and have no drive to take part in the discussion & execution. Haiz, I should not behave like dat. Getting more and more negative. Hmm they still do not update us with the business progress. A bit sad tough. Maybe WL has his own reasons ba, so be it.
I met dis chinese guy, DX. very clean looking PHD-to be. Haa... wid a spec, look very approachable and nice. Haa.. but when he starts to speak up, hmmm some points being deducted...kekek =)
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Had a fun dazu last night. Although it was only a bible quiz and bible verse memorising night, I simply enjoy the fellowship. Think i must confess a bit, sometimes i think I am being too real to them. As in i laugh, complain, shout whenever i want to. Haa... i can be very sarcastic and particular at times. Really thankful that they accept me as part of them.
One sem down. I have another sem left. I think I will miss everyone one in ccf and the moments we spend tog. I called it my home as this is where i belong. Their love, acceptance, caring, forgiveness and sometimes scoldings...haha ;p
weird chinese...
So what if all the bosses are back in town? They din even bother to greet and update us. Haiz so sad. Although I was looking forward to their comeback, now I dont really think so. Perhaps out of sight is better?
Haa.. What kind of employee I am!!!
Think this YM very cute. He really acts according to instructions without asking why. Juz do blindly. When RW and I queried him for some of the calculations, he appeared to have little knowledge on what he is doing and push the responsibilities to MB and those profile creators. Haiyo, I know I am being picky and choosy. But you shd at least understand what you are doing ma. So when people ask you and you know how to reason it out.
Then during lunchtime, RW was kind enuff to ask YM how his wife job hunting coming along. Guess what?! YM kept quiet for a while and he blurted out "None of your business. Why should be bother others affairs. Should people tell you how many kids they want?"
RW was kind enuff, he din talk back. If I were him, I would definitely tell him off. What's wrong with showing concern? People ask becoz they care. You think we are so free to bother mer. Haiz... are all the chinese is the same? I wonder
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Got this sms yest. It says: "Go and look for the doors. God will guide you to the door."
Hmm how true it is? I dunno. Is it a sensible thing to do as in find the way out first myself? Hmmm....
Haa.. What kind of employee I am!!!
Think this YM very cute. He really acts according to instructions without asking why. Juz do blindly. When RW and I queried him for some of the calculations, he appeared to have little knowledge on what he is doing and push the responsibilities to MB and those profile creators. Haiyo, I know I am being picky and choosy. But you shd at least understand what you are doing ma. So when people ask you and you know how to reason it out.
Then during lunchtime, RW was kind enuff to ask YM how his wife job hunting coming along. Guess what?! YM kept quiet for a while and he blurted out "None of your business. Why should be bother others affairs. Should people tell you how many kids they want?"
RW was kind enuff, he din talk back. If I were him, I would definitely tell him off. What's wrong with showing concern? People ask becoz they care. You think we are so free to bother mer. Haiz... are all the chinese is the same? I wonder
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Got this sms yest. It says: "Go and look for the doors. God will guide you to the door."
Hmm how true it is? I dunno. Is it a sensible thing to do as in find the way out first myself? Hmmm....
Tuesday, October 4, 2005
罗马书8章
回来公司的日子更是无聊,但至少时间过得快些,也比较有人气...
终于,我行动了.我要耐心等待... =)
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查考罗马书8章让我获益匪浅...
1. 当我们相信神时,基督的灵就进入我们的心中.所以我们要学习过一个体贴基督的生活.意思就是说顺从神的教导,遵行他的诫命.
2. 圣灵也能体恤我们的需要.在这败坏的世代中,他和我们一同叹息.好神奇啊!! 当我们不知道要怎样祷告时,她用说不出的叹息为我们向父神祷告.有时候我们真的是只知腹中苦,也不知该如何向周遭的人诉苦.有苦自己知啊! 假如你有办法用言语或文字来表达你的苦,那它就不是真的很苦.苦应该是非笔墨所能形容的!对吗?
3. 没有任何的东西能使我与神隔绝,不管是生,是死,是天上,抑或是地下. 所以,圣灵也绝对不会离开你,除非你选择不信.上帝的爱如此恒久和坚韧. 试想:在患难苦难当中, 我有怀疑神的爱吗? 哎...罗8:28 万事互相效力,叫爱神的人得益处,就是按他旨意被召的... 所有发生的事情都是好的,是在神的计划和旨意里面.它不一定对你有利,但它绝对是有益处的.记得,除非你爱神,否则...呵呵...
终于,我行动了.我要耐心等待... =)
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查考罗马书8章让我获益匪浅...
1. 当我们相信神时,基督的灵就进入我们的心中.所以我们要学习过一个体贴基督的生活.意思就是说顺从神的教导,遵行他的诫命.
2. 圣灵也能体恤我们的需要.在这败坏的世代中,他和我们一同叹息.好神奇啊!! 当我们不知道要怎样祷告时,她用说不出的叹息为我们向父神祷告.有时候我们真的是只知腹中苦,也不知该如何向周遭的人诉苦.有苦自己知啊! 假如你有办法用言语或文字来表达你的苦,那它就不是真的很苦.苦应该是非笔墨所能形容的!对吗?
3. 没有任何的东西能使我与神隔绝,不管是生,是死,是天上,抑或是地下. 所以,圣灵也绝对不会离开你,除非你选择不信.上帝的爱如此恒久和坚韧. 试想:在患难苦难当中, 我有怀疑神的爱吗? 哎...罗8:28 万事互相效力,叫爱神的人得益处,就是按他旨意被召的... 所有发生的事情都是好的,是在神的计划和旨意里面.它不一定对你有利,但它绝对是有益处的.记得,除非你爱神,否则...呵呵...
Monday, October 3, 2005
after a long long weeekend
Juz came back from a 4-days break. Feel lethargic and dun feel like working at all! This sucks, isn't it? ;p
Had a good time with family. Spent most of the time on the journey and makan-ining non-stop. As a result, gain a few Kgs. arghhh!! Practically we did nothing much for the whole trip... Well, it was the atmosphere and bond that counts. Also, slacking at times is a blessing too. Keep eating and koon-ing =) Indeed i am a pig...
Went to Galilee church last Sunday. Hmm a church which nurtures me and equips me with many of my current gifts. I am thankful to God, the pastors, the kind elders who touch my life. Without them, I wont be who I am today. New generations have grown up and now it 's their turn to stand up and lead. Good good.
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Today is the 4th day of October. Hmm i have been grumbling for that long and yet nothing happen. I am tempted to try ST since gd fren is there also. But do I really want to be a SE? One thing I am very sure is I do not want to face computer all the time! I am very clear about this. I have been praying everyday for that UBS thingy. I dun wan to get distracted bcoz of ST thingy.* concentrate concentrate, focus focus*
I thought I shd have faith in HIM, why am i still trying to find ways on my own. He has a purpose for everything. Even If He does not allow, I am still OK and will learn to be calm and submissive. At least I try and have passion in it. I want to be accountable to myself and God, of course.
I somehow know what I want but I do not know how do I get there. Will I ever get there? I dunno. Which path to take? Is that the correct one? I dunno either.*puzzled and confused*
HE knows.
Had a good time with family. Spent most of the time on the journey and makan-ining non-stop. As a result, gain a few Kgs. arghhh!! Practically we did nothing much for the whole trip... Well, it was the atmosphere and bond that counts. Also, slacking at times is a blessing too. Keep eating and koon-ing =) Indeed i am a pig...
Went to Galilee church last Sunday. Hmm a church which nurtures me and equips me with many of my current gifts. I am thankful to God, the pastors, the kind elders who touch my life. Without them, I wont be who I am today. New generations have grown up and now it 's their turn to stand up and lead. Good good.
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Today is the 4th day of October. Hmm i have been grumbling for that long and yet nothing happen. I am tempted to try ST since gd fren is there also. But do I really want to be a SE? One thing I am very sure is I do not want to face computer all the time! I am very clear about this. I have been praying everyday for that UBS thingy. I dun wan to get distracted bcoz of ST thingy.* concentrate concentrate, focus focus*
I thought I shd have faith in HIM, why am i still trying to find ways on my own. He has a purpose for everything. Even If He does not allow, I am still OK and will learn to be calm and submissive. At least I try and have passion in it. I want to be accountable to myself and God, of course.
I somehow know what I want but I do not know how do I get there. Will I ever get there? I dunno. Which path to take? Is that the correct one? I dunno either.*puzzled and confused*
HE knows.
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Days in SIMTech, NTU
I reliase I dun really like programming! Those DOS command looked aliens to me and I do not know how to communicate with them!!!
Unable to use this JAM/MR tool to build the application, therefore cant add in any trace info. Oops, how to do? I do not know ler... On the other hand, I am thankful that I get to know self a little bit more. My interest might not be in coding... Hmmm perhaps this is why some doors are never opened? Dunno. Maybe, possible or it could be just a wild and silly thought only...
Hate to come SIMTech at times as need to take bus179 to NTU. Althought the journey is shorter and comparably nearer to my house, I dislike the inconveniences. Kekek.. spolit girl! Ah well, i get to taste lots nice n cheap food here. Kekek.. and I was so happy to spot a few hallmates, and CFers yesterday during meal hours. So nice and heartwarming esp when i saw junyi and darren. Since 1999 we were in the same hall till we grad...haha.. how time flies.. and now junyi is back for Master while Darren is wid NIE. Unbelievable!!!
I am goin to stuck in this stupid Argyll CMS... haiz...
Unable to use this JAM/MR tool to build the application, therefore cant add in any trace info. Oops, how to do? I do not know ler... On the other hand, I am thankful that I get to know self a little bit more. My interest might not be in coding... Hmmm perhaps this is why some doors are never opened? Dunno. Maybe, possible or it could be just a wild and silly thought only...
Hate to come SIMTech at times as need to take bus179 to NTU. Althought the journey is shorter and comparably nearer to my house, I dislike the inconveniences. Kekek.. spolit girl! Ah well, i get to taste lots nice n cheap food here. Kekek.. and I was so happy to spot a few hallmates, and CFers yesterday during meal hours. So nice and heartwarming esp when i saw junyi and darren. Since 1999 we were in the same hall till we grad...haha.. how time flies.. and now junyi is back for Master while Darren is wid NIE. Unbelievable!!!
I am goin to stuck in this stupid Argyll CMS... haiz...
Sunday, September 25, 2005
3 Ms...
Misunderstanding
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Had a good working adult grp last Friday. It was about 'Misunderstanding'. Many a times, we tend to see things from different perspectives and thus different views. Nothing bad actually, we just have to learn to think, listen, understand and discern the variants. If you are lacking of wisdom, ask from HIM! (James 1:5)
Morning breakfast
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This is the first time I see most of them so punctual and enthu for our CG gathering. It was a farewell breakfast for the 2 girls and a mini celebration for YT whose birthday was on 24th. Thank God for the time. I am grateful!!!
Mayo shredded chicken, mayo-tuna, tomato, cheese cubes, wholemeal bread, papaya, watermelon, duku, milk and orange juice. That's what we had for our bf!! I enjoy preparing food for those I want to share love with. Although it is not very yummy and fantastic but it is the thoughts that count! I like cooking, i like baking and I love food! haha.. oops... must watch what you eat... haha =)
Post Mid-autumn celebration
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Met many old aunties and uncles from old Nantah last night. They are a bunch of lovely, fun-loving and kind ex-Cfers. They shared their testimonies on how they 'borrow' time from God and How gracious God is in their lives. Guess what, they were so happy to see us, the new blood participating in their activities. We look extremely precious! haa.. only a few of us turned up actually. Gd fren n Lio, JY, YF, Andy n SM. Had a nice chat wid gd fren. Thank God for the frenship we had over the years. The trust and the honesty we have for one another... a fren whom I can turn to when I am not OK. Hope this frenship will continue to blossom as we grow older =)
I prayed b4 the gathering. I know I will see them and thank God that the relationship has improved and I truly believe that In Christ, there should not be hatred but love and forgiveness. I pray to God that I can truly released from that burden and have reconciliation in HIM. I can, by His grace and strength!
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It is a brand new week! Yahoo..i look forward to the family trip....kekek ;p
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Had a good working adult grp last Friday. It was about 'Misunderstanding'. Many a times, we tend to see things from different perspectives and thus different views. Nothing bad actually, we just have to learn to think, listen, understand and discern the variants. If you are lacking of wisdom, ask from HIM! (James 1:5)
Morning breakfast
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This is the first time I see most of them so punctual and enthu for our CG gathering. It was a farewell breakfast for the 2 girls and a mini celebration for YT whose birthday was on 24th. Thank God for the time. I am grateful!!!
Mayo shredded chicken, mayo-tuna, tomato, cheese cubes, wholemeal bread, papaya, watermelon, duku, milk and orange juice. That's what we had for our bf!! I enjoy preparing food for those I want to share love with. Although it is not very yummy and fantastic but it is the thoughts that count! I like cooking, i like baking and I love food! haha.. oops... must watch what you eat... haha =)
Post Mid-autumn celebration
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Met many old aunties and uncles from old Nantah last night. They are a bunch of lovely, fun-loving and kind ex-Cfers. They shared their testimonies on how they 'borrow' time from God and How gracious God is in their lives. Guess what, they were so happy to see us, the new blood participating in their activities. We look extremely precious! haa.. only a few of us turned up actually. Gd fren n Lio, JY, YF, Andy n SM. Had a nice chat wid gd fren. Thank God for the frenship we had over the years. The trust and the honesty we have for one another... a fren whom I can turn to when I am not OK. Hope this frenship will continue to blossom as we grow older =)
I prayed b4 the gathering. I know I will see them and thank God that the relationship has improved and I truly believe that In Christ, there should not be hatred but love and forgiveness. I pray to God that I can truly released from that burden and have reconciliation in HIM. I can, by His grace and strength!
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It is a brand new week! Yahoo..i look forward to the family trip....kekek ;p
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
祂至今仍然活在我们当中!
Got this reminder yesterday during xiao zu...
虽然神有时候没有应允和成就我们所祈求的事, 这并不表示祂不在!! 祂依然在我们当中!
I am goin to lead this song dis sun. This song keeps reminding me that I need to do things in accordance to His plan and purposes. I need to trust my Lord wholeheartedly in all things and believe that He makes all things beutiful in His time.
若非耶和华建造房屋 建造的人就枉然劳力
若非耶和华看守城池 看守的人就枉然儆醒
我行若非神所愿 一切将拆毁
我行若无神祝福 一切都将枉然
我所需要持受的 只是一颗心
一颗完全相信的 坚定倚靠的心
虽然神有时候没有应允和成就我们所祈求的事, 这并不表示祂不在!! 祂依然在我们当中!
I am goin to lead this song dis sun. This song keeps reminding me that I need to do things in accordance to His plan and purposes. I need to trust my Lord wholeheartedly in all things and believe that He makes all things beutiful in His time.
若非耶和华建造房屋 建造的人就枉然劳力
若非耶和华看守城池 看守的人就枉然儆醒
我行若非神所愿 一切将拆毁
我行若无神祝福 一切都将枉然
我所需要持受的 只是一颗心
一颗完全相信的 坚定倚靠的心
Monday, September 19, 2005
20th day of the 9th month in 2005
How time flies! Today is the 20th day of moi Septembre le. What have I done for the past 20 days?
Do not know what to say
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Recently I suddenly become speechless when it comes to prayers. I do not know how should I pray and what to tell my abba father in heaven. Loss of words and I become so numb. I really need Holy spirit to intercede for me.
I know He knows what is in my mind and He knows everything about me. He sees it and He will not just leave me alone. I know, I know... Someone suggested that I can just sing songs when I dunno what & how to pray. It makes sense, ya?
Something to give thanks
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Seeing myself participate more in church ministry recently i.e. Labis mission trip, Lishi CG17 group and Working adult group. I guess it is time for me to respond to God's calling towards the congregations. This is something good and worth of giving thanks. I am sure I will get to learn alot. Well, it wont be an easy path and it can be quite challenging and tough job.
God lets me reliase that I need to be gentler and more humble while working wid the rest. He allows me to see the vision and I have the responsilities to share with the rest. I need to be more careful with my thoughts and my words so that what i do, i say, i think do honour God and is God-fearing.
Heard this statement from Dr Loo recently during a talk on God's sovereignty.
Proverbs 4:23 Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.
You know what... our THOUGHTs control our ACTIONs, then soon it becomes our HABIT. Eventually it develops into our CHARACTERs and it affects our LIVEs and becomes PART OF US.
Isn't it scary? Hmm what you think can have such a great impact on your life! Do you reliase it? Come on, LY... you better dwell in the Lord always and ask HIM to guard your HEART =)
People come people go
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Hmm finally 2 students are leaving for UK soon. Glad to have a chance to actually lead them as a group. Sometimes I feel so close yet I do feel so far at times. Well, I really hope that they can continue to witness God in whatever they are doing and may God mould them into a better and God-fearing person.
Like to mention one of them. I feel that she is faithful, gentle and a person with gratitude. A very simple lady and I am glad that I actually able to grow with her in certain part of her life journey. Maybe I have influenced her some bad values... haha =p ah well, I do have some positive influences too. Hee =) I recall the sms which she sent was quite heart warming and it has since become my reminder when I feel discouraged.
It says: When the going gets tough, toughen your faith
Indeed a very simple and normal message, somehow at that point of time it touches me =)
Do not know what to say
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Recently I suddenly become speechless when it comes to prayers. I do not know how should I pray and what to tell my abba father in heaven. Loss of words and I become so numb. I really need Holy spirit to intercede for me.
I know He knows what is in my mind and He knows everything about me. He sees it and He will not just leave me alone. I know, I know... Someone suggested that I can just sing songs when I dunno what & how to pray. It makes sense, ya?
Something to give thanks
-------------------------
Seeing myself participate more in church ministry recently i.e. Labis mission trip, Lishi CG17 group and Working adult group. I guess it is time for me to respond to God's calling towards the congregations. This is something good and worth of giving thanks. I am sure I will get to learn alot. Well, it wont be an easy path and it can be quite challenging and tough job.
God lets me reliase that I need to be gentler and more humble while working wid the rest. He allows me to see the vision and I have the responsilities to share with the rest. I need to be more careful with my thoughts and my words so that what i do, i say, i think do honour God and is God-fearing.
Heard this statement from Dr Loo recently during a talk on God's sovereignty.
Proverbs 4:23 Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.
You know what... our THOUGHTs control our ACTIONs, then soon it becomes our HABIT. Eventually it develops into our CHARACTERs and it affects our LIVEs and becomes PART OF US.
Isn't it scary? Hmm what you think can have such a great impact on your life! Do you reliase it? Come on, LY... you better dwell in the Lord always and ask HIM to guard your HEART =)
People come people go
----------------------
Hmm finally 2 students are leaving for UK soon. Glad to have a chance to actually lead them as a group. Sometimes I feel so close yet I do feel so far at times. Well, I really hope that they can continue to witness God in whatever they are doing and may God mould them into a better and God-fearing person.
Like to mention one of them. I feel that she is faithful, gentle and a person with gratitude. A very simple lady and I am glad that I actually able to grow with her in certain part of her life journey. Maybe I have influenced her some bad values... haha =p ah well, I do have some positive influences too. Hee =) I recall the sms which she sent was quite heart warming and it has since become my reminder when I feel discouraged.
It says: When the going gets tough, toughen your faith
Indeed a very simple and normal message, somehow at that point of time it touches me =)
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
SIghz...
Ms Bong reminds me this in response tio my poem...
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No matter how good things are in your life,there is always something bad that needs to be worked on. and no matter how bad things in your life, there is always something good you can thank God for. you can focus on your purposes, or focus on your problems.
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I totally agree but I do not know how do I relate... haiz.. mental blocked.
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No matter how good things are in your life,there is always something bad that needs to be worked on. and no matter how bad things in your life, there is always something good you can thank God for. you can focus on your purposes, or focus on your problems.
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I totally agree but I do not know how do I relate... haiz.. mental blocked.
以为...其实...
以为满足 其实内心有些空虚
以为喜乐 其实里面纳闷得很
以为忙碌 其实又悠闲又无聊
以为可定下心来 其实更举棋不定
以为平静 其实是暴风雪来临前夕
以为知道 其实脑子一片空白
太多以为... 导致我不懂该如何面对现实...
惊慌失措... 思路乱得很...
我讨厌...我不喜欢.... 这样的安排!!!
以为喜乐 其实里面纳闷得很
以为忙碌 其实又悠闲又无聊
以为可定下心来 其实更举棋不定
以为平静 其实是暴风雪来临前夕
以为知道 其实脑子一片空白
太多以为... 导致我不懂该如何面对现实...
惊慌失措... 思路乱得很...
我讨厌...我不喜欢.... 这样的安排!!!
Sunday, September 11, 2005
some disorganized thoughts
Hmm somehow I fear of coming to work. Scared to see his face and talk to him. The morale in office is low... I gotta 振作 abit... must... Good fren and nice proj manager are gone and I'm a bit sad...
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A leader should see the vision first from God then he can only impart it to the fellow followers. Actually I always think that God's expectations is our expectations too. So so we need to work harder towards the goal. We need to 体恤 mankind's weaknesses but we cant always compromise in certain things that God does not honour. Haiz... Maybe I expect too much? Not humble enough? Too high ego? But i was trained like that ler... during my teenage times, uni days and now!!!
I shared with JW and SM some of my thoughts ..at least i can share it freely and as I wished. Thanks God for the brothers I met in CCF, they are quite helpful,wise and reliable.
When you have problems, do not ask 'Why me?'. But ask 'What you want me to learn out of it?'. OK, i am learning...
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NCS? NCS! NCS... Should I try it out? Dun really know how should I react... OK, I will try and if the door is opened, I will walk towards the door.
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A leader should see the vision first from God then he can only impart it to the fellow followers. Actually I always think that God's expectations is our expectations too. So so we need to work harder towards the goal. We need to 体恤 mankind's weaknesses but we cant always compromise in certain things that God does not honour. Haiz... Maybe I expect too much? Not humble enough? Too high ego? But i was trained like that ler... during my teenage times, uni days and now!!!
I shared with JW and SM some of my thoughts ..at least i can share it freely and as I wished. Thanks God for the brothers I met in CCF, they are quite helpful,wise and reliable.
When you have problems, do not ask 'Why me?'. But ask 'What you want me to learn out of it?'. OK, i am learning...
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NCS? NCS! NCS... Should I try it out? Dun really know how should I react... OK, I will try and if the door is opened, I will walk towards the door.
Wednesday, September 7, 2005
Crushed
I am crushed, early in the morning in office
Gonna to be tough. I almost want to give up liao.
Help me Lord
Gonna to be tough. I almost want to give up liao.
Help me Lord
Tuesday, September 6, 2005
my labour day + Tioman trip
5th Sept is my labour day of the year!! I took one day leave n rest at home. But it is for good reason.
I was reminded twice a day for the same message and I am thankful for the light that God has shed upon me.
First reminder - daily bread
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1. No matter what our task, it's our duty to work for God's glory (Colossians 3:23). In this sense, no job is better than another. Each should result in honor to God.
2. The way we work can earn the respect of those who do not follow Christ (1 Thessalonians 4:11-12). A boss shouldn't have to tell a Christian to use time well or to work hard.
3. Our work is one way to fulfill our dual purpose: to love God and others. Showing love to our co-workers is a good way to show that we love God (Matthew 22:37-40).
4. We must work to provide for those who depend on us. Harsh words of criticism are reserved for those who don't take care of their family (1 Timothy 5:8).
Having a job can be hard work. Even for those who truly enjoy their jobs, it's nice to have a Labor Day breather. But until the day comes when our work is over, our task is to make our labor a testimony to God's glory. —Dave Branon
Second reminder = ELder Yong @ Monday Blue talk
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1. Work is sacred. It is given to us by God. God wants Adam to work even before he sins.
2. Enjoy the labour of your work. Work hard and enjoy what you gets
3. Always go back to God, align with His teaching. The most difficult lesson is life is to abide God's teaching in the most simplest things i.e. work, relationship
4. Try to do something with eternal values rather than temporal values
God allows us to do certain things and make sure you make selection not beyond the boundary He has set. He still grant us freedom and let us choose what kind of man we want to be. But do not forget that you need to be responsible for what you choose.
Always, go back to God n seek His wills.
Actually I am going thru some changes at work especially. I am worried that I am unable to face the challenges ahead. It is gonna to be tough but challenging. I need to shoulder more responsibilities and learn new things at work. Somehow I am lacking of patience and a humble soul. I am not sure the path I am taking on is correct anot, I am in a dilemma but I always think that God's grace is suffiicient for me! Amen.
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Went to Tioman for my Open water diving course. It was fun. I tried something different and that is challenging! I am kinda proud of myself and I really thank God for the scuba clan I went with and the nice instructors I have.
Thank God that we are safe throught the trip. I guess I get to know others more and vice versa, which is a good thing.
Thank God again for this dive experience. I might be going again... Hee =)
I was reminded twice a day for the same message and I am thankful for the light that God has shed upon me.
First reminder - daily bread
====================
1. No matter what our task, it's our duty to work for God's glory (Colossians 3:23). In this sense, no job is better than another. Each should result in honor to God.
2. The way we work can earn the respect of those who do not follow Christ (1 Thessalonians 4:11-12). A boss shouldn't have to tell a Christian to use time well or to work hard.
3. Our work is one way to fulfill our dual purpose: to love God and others. Showing love to our co-workers is a good way to show that we love God (Matthew 22:37-40).
4. We must work to provide for those who depend on us. Harsh words of criticism are reserved for those who don't take care of their family (1 Timothy 5:8).
Having a job can be hard work. Even for those who truly enjoy their jobs, it's nice to have a Labor Day breather. But until the day comes when our work is over, our task is to make our labor a testimony to God's glory. —Dave Branon
Second reminder = ELder Yong @ Monday Blue talk
=====================================
1. Work is sacred. It is given to us by God. God wants Adam to work even before he sins.
2. Enjoy the labour of your work. Work hard and enjoy what you gets
3. Always go back to God, align with His teaching. The most difficult lesson is life is to abide God's teaching in the most simplest things i.e. work, relationship
4. Try to do something with eternal values rather than temporal values
God allows us to do certain things and make sure you make selection not beyond the boundary He has set. He still grant us freedom and let us choose what kind of man we want to be. But do not forget that you need to be responsible for what you choose.
Always, go back to God n seek His wills.
Actually I am going thru some changes at work especially. I am worried that I am unable to face the challenges ahead. It is gonna to be tough but challenging. I need to shoulder more responsibilities and learn new things at work. Somehow I am lacking of patience and a humble soul. I am not sure the path I am taking on is correct anot, I am in a dilemma but I always think that God's grace is suffiicient for me! Amen.
**************************************************
Went to Tioman for my Open water diving course. It was fun. I tried something different and that is challenging! I am kinda proud of myself and I really thank God for the scuba clan I went with and the nice instructors I have.
Thank God that we are safe throught the trip. I guess I get to know others more and vice versa, which is a good thing.
Thank God again for this dive experience. I might be going again... Hee =)
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